tomorrow decide my fate, my future.
EVERYTHING!
tomorrow is my result.
and i felt that i dun hav any confident anymore.
i am soooo scared that i will make both of my parents disappoint.
because their hope is to see me get thru polytechnic.
that my aim.
but now my confident have got gooooneee doooown to the drain
i felt sooo sad.
when i get to know that my result is on Monday 12 Jan ' 09
i sent a message to my sister saying i am scared that i might make both my parent sad.
that i will label myself a unsucessful daugther to my parent
make my family lost hope for me.
ohh god how is the result tomorrow?
i am scared.
i feel like crying.
i duno wat to dooo!!
there many thing reward i will get if i pass my O level.
i get $200 buck an exchange for a PSP from my mummy because i say i dun want a PSP anymore.
i get a gold necklace from my daddy that will be my 18th birthday give and my O level gift for passing
comfirm boh my sister will take me out for shopping and the bill goes to them.
that happen if i pass..
if i flung how?
if i flung isit a shame on my parents.
and i am not a grateful daugther to them.
just because i cannot fullfil their wishes.
oh god..
please make this real.
i want a pass..
and what does dream mean?
i have FOUR dream about O level.
last friday when to Singapore Expo.
with my adk, mummy and sister
i bought myself 5 perfume
3 adidas perfume and another 2 i forget.
and i bought myself a charles and keith scandal!!
i was like shopping due of thinking of my O level result.
but somehow i know i cannot run away from the fact and fate.
i must face the reality.
i must face wth the music
tommorrow 2pm it will be out?
so how?
O level result you are killing me
and to Crambridge marker,
did i di my O level the best?
i am scared!!!
oh god.
how?
i want 18 points can i?
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