You got blog? you used to tell me to link your blog and i always say later, later, even for msn too. Gosh, i really regret ):
Ridzuan Jumali, you left me. Gosh i keep recalling our memories together ):
You remember 14 february 2009 we watch movie together the movie called the other end of the line ? At Ang Mo Kio hub, you were my date, and i am your date.
Then we off to to take bus 88 to Pasir Ris cause i badly wanted to watch the stars by the beach. And you go ahead, anything will do. And we off the Mangroove to cari hantu katakan.
We went to ehub to eat and walk all the way to my home. That sweet (:
Remember how you say you wanted to meet me ? and i say NO?
Remember the times you used to study for your N level whereas i study for my O level.
And i teach you math, under the void deck we was date ? ):
Remember our first date ? Gosh Ridzuan Jumali all of that keep coming back in my mind.
Remember you fetch me from my work place, and how i used to say " i taknak jumpe you kan, and say boleh ugh, please ? and we decided to meet, but different capsule ? " And we meet at Pasir Ris to off to the beach to watch the stars ? Ridzuan Jumali, you make a big sacrifice for me. You willing to do anything to please me.
And how i used to avoid you in school.
And how you say to " Iraah you smell great.! "
And i miss your Adidas perfume.
And how you used to called me saying " hey i saw you wearing this and this , like stalking (: "
Then we meet again with Ricky and Lisha and off to Sungei Api Api and how we get screen by the cops?
The last time i meet you was last year, you came under my void deck, and wanted to meet me. And i say okay. we talk all. and you irritated me and i walk you off. How cruel am i ?
And we never call or text only msn.
But deep in my heart i am move in everything you did to me. Really, cause no guys can do all the above things for me, expect for you. I salute you Ridzuan Jumali
Then one fine day, a facebook friend post something about RIP Ridzuan Jumali and i when to see under search, i was hoping it wasn't you. And true enough, it is was you ): You left me Wan. Ridzuan Jumali , how were you death? what happened? i want to know but i don't want to hear any stories about you. and i cannot myself from crying ):
You now gone Ridzuan Jumali. You left me without any words. You cannot be alive back. Sesungguhnya Wan Tuhan yang maha besar lebih menyayangi diri kau Wan .
You lost mean alot to me. Please appear in my dream will you ? Cause i miss you. Damn much. Saper nak layan aku? Saper nak tengok wayang ngn aku ? Saper nak layan all my nonsense? Saper nak tgk stars by the beach ngn aku ? Saper nak belikan Old Chang Kee nye epok2? Saper nak dengar sumer mapek aku ?
Ridzuan although you are gone , you name, our memories are keep seal in my heart. Cause i never find anyone like you. I swear.
Thanks friends for hearing my stories. All i want is you people to sedekah Al Fatiha kepada Arwahnya itu sudah membuatkan diri iraah bahagia. Kerna doa ku adalah segalanya bagi aku.
Ridzuan Jumali, iraah sungguh berduka cita dengan kepergiaan mu, kerna kau telah membuat sejarah dalam hidup, sejarah yang manusia lain di sisi ini tidak boleh lakukan kepada aku. Semua kenangan antara kita akan ku semaikan di dalam hati ku. Kesedihan ini tidak boleh ku tahan lagi, setiap air mata yang menitis membuatkan aku semakin rindu pada mu. Aku ingin memeluk mu. Wahai Ridzuan Jumali, hadir lah dalam mimpiku dan dakap ku ): Kerna aku amat menrindui diri mu.
Al Fatiha untuk Md Ridzuan Jumali