He Better Off Without Me

2011-09-15T22:45:00.001+08:00

Hello?

2011-04-08T00:53:00.001+08:00

I am bored. I miss having a boyfriend. So who want to be my boyfriend?

2011-02-11T22:01:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAA BOOOOO (:

Update.

I am going to be a NURSE sooon.

Like REAL SOOON you know?

Haiyoooo.

Tak Naaak.

): Imissyou. Last 2 years my Valentime day was spent with Md Ridzuan Jumali. My BestFriennnd. Now you are GONE):

I want a imam to lead me in every prayer. But now the guys are different. Way to different. So hard. Sungguh hard.

They say insyallah. and bersabar(:

2010-10-11T21:11:00.002+08:00

Hello,

Sure you read my post at my latests feeds at Facebook. If not.

School? End on 4 December 2010. And i got 4 Modules to go. Patient Care B , Behavioral Science 2 , Project Management and Psychiatric Nursing to end off this semester. I got 3project , 3 class test , 1 phase test, 1 mcq test , 1 exam. Before i call it what a stressful semester): Seems like everyday i be home at 7pm and leave the house to 7am. Timetable just HEARTACHE .

how do i handle all this? gosh.

Can i make it?

I hope i dooo ! please !

2010-10-07T19:51:00.001+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOO (:

Suddenly that you are somewhere near me. Looking at me.

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Darling I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we share

for you Wan): there many things i wanted to tell you. Complain to you. And all stuffs.I really took you for granted. I am sorry Md Ridzuan Jumali.

Okay, really i had fun yesterday with my FOLK ! HAHA

We make a SURPRISE for Dudey and Cia. We force them to close their eyes. Cause they don't know that Epul was there. HAHA. And the goes my plan with Epul. Gees. And we smoke SHEESHA Bubble gum flavor ! Whee. With Me, Cia, Dude , Epul , Kp , Mat M'sia ( KRATZ ) and girlfriend. And we smoke. Sabo-ING each other. Running around. As if the place is ours. The 3 guy really crazy. HAHA. But in the end i we really had fun. (:

And picture are up in my FACEBOOK.

2010-10-02T12:32:00.003+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Hello. Hello.

Gosh, i have been really goooooood this few day. Really. Thank God really show me what are real friends for. I have not be really good on catching up on my nursing friends. Oh, i am sorry nursingmates.

My mind is in the whirl right now, should i continue my studies or work 1 year of experienced?

Gosh. I really don't know what to do. Help me please.

And school? will be starting in a few more day ! oh tidaaaaaaaaak !

Need to dye my hair black. Need to study. Revise. Darn.

Help. ! School Mode later. And i will be awaaaaay. Trying to cope on my GpA. To get better result. And 2.2 will be TONS TONS TONS of project. Can i make it? Can i graduate? Oh God, have you been listening to my prayers?

And not forget i will be doing CPR. Gosh, this butt will surely be in pain. And body cramp.

I hope i can endure all this.

and you whom i care, i know it has been tough for you. Such as bikes and the fine you got to pay. I know i can't say this to you on the phone or thru text message. Cause i got no guts. But i want to you settle your stuffs 1st okay? Like i say to you before on my blog, i am willing to wait for you. Finish off your Atec 2 okay? Cause i really understand your situation NS life is not easy. Okaaaay Md Farhan Yusof?

2010-08-14T00:59:00.003+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

awwww. sungguh i am touch(:

iloveyou. iloveyou. shhhh.

yeah, after YOG ada dating(:

And i love you and i willing to wait for you after you NS okay?

And i don't want to rush things okay? Takmu terburu (:

Good luck for your YOG later.

Sungguh dah lama tak dating , feel so weird.

Swear i love you not because of what people say about you.

But what i see.

And i keep hearing compliment about you (:

2010-08-11T23:06:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Well it is fasting month. And i did survive 1st day of Ramadan. Without trying to TERMAKI. Thank God (:

And puasa remind me of late Ridzuan and late Abg An-Nur ):

I miss them. I am sure you are place in heaven surrounding the good people. Insyallah (:

Okay, my last day of aatachment is RAYA ! and my second last day of attachment is MALAM RAYA ! Baik kaaan ! I know (:

Okay, to you, yeah i do like you. and seriously i heard many good stuffs about you. All the good ones. But still now , if you were to ask me i cannot give you the answer on why i like you. Cause to me you are one of the kind. You are special. And i don't know why. Cause you are who you are. And there is something in my heart that tell me that i want to know more about ya (:

Seriously JAWS (:

2010-07-25T02:19:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Here staring in up the window, to look for star.

trying not to make myself cry, holding back the tears that kept falling down.

All my life, you were there for me, then you return to God Hand.

I miss you again. It is going to be 1 month you gone.

a few days and your roh would be here anymore. ):

Sumpaah aku miss kauu . I know crying for you is not good. But why? I swear i miss you.

I watch the other end of the line just now. Gosh i stop that movie, cause it remind me of you.

Your voice complete my night each day when i cannot sleep ):

Cause you are the one i miss damn much right now.

Cause i never appreciate you and all the things you done to me when you are still alive.

Now you are gone, i am stupid, am i? Such a stupid girl right? I know it myself. You were there at all times. But i am there when you need me the most. No i am not there ):

I am sorry.

Mummy notice my change, she asked me whether am i okay, am i able to cope in life? Then i look at her, and started crying. I told mummy the truth. On how bad i am as a friend! I am so cruel. He don't deserve a friend like me. Mummy told me, everything going to be fine, cause god love him more. Mummy has lost her 2 siblings whereas Daddy have lost his parents. There have once been in my situation. And look how Mummy and Daddy were strong? I need to be strong like them. Oh Wan, will you appear in my dreams?

Friend, i am sorry for crying. Really. I never stop giving you prays. To be surrounding all the good person, and always happy up there(: I miss you Wan. You a great friends. Your video never fails to make me cry ): How i wish i can get the same friend as you. Will there be a good person as you out there? Insyallah there will be.

2010-07-04T22:19:00.003+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

Gosh, how cruel am i ? Crying over someone that is gone for good? Gosh, forgive me God ): I don't wish to be cruel. Maybe i cannot accept the fact that he is gone for good (:

Tapi apa kan daya, tuhan lebih menyaying diri dier(:

Wan, i want you to be happy up there, surrounding all the good people. And you don't create any more sin whereas i am here in the world trying my myself to avoid sins but then i am not prefect, i do make sins that god does not like us to do those sins.

I have accept your death, kerna itu Tuhan telah tentu hari, waktu , masa , detik and saat untuk kita sumer. Kini masa Wan telah habis di muka bumi. Dan kita hamba Allah yang lemah ini tidak tak bila tiba masa kita pula. Kerna Allah sudah tentukan hari mati kita(:

Iraah janji untuk tabahkan hati dan menerima segala ujian diri yang Maha Esa kerna iraah yakin kesemua apa yang telah terjadi mesti ada hikmah di sebaliknya. Insan yang lemah ini hanya mampu mendoakan Wan kerna itu yang Wan perlukan dari Hamba- Hamba Allah yang lemah di muka bumi ini.

Iraah bahagia kerna Wan pernah memberikan apa itu makna kawan yang baik. Kerna susah bagi iraah untuk mendapat orang seperti MD RIDZUAN JUMALI (:

Iraah masih tau Roh Wan ada di sini. Tetapi iraah tidak dapat melihat dengan mata kasar. Iraah mahu melihat Wan dalam mimpi iraah. Iraah mahu Wan tahu yang Wan adalah orang paling iraah hargai dapat hidup iraah walaupun iraah tidak pernah memberitahu Wan. Iraah sendiri mengetahui bahawa ini semua tidak mungkin berlaku. Iraah reda dan pemergiaan Wan kerna Tuhan yang Maha Esa telah mengambil nyawa Wan dan Wan telah mengakhiri tugas Wan sebagai Hamba Allah di muka bumi ini. Iraah berdoa Wan bersama orang- orang yang beriman dan Wan sentiasa senyum di sana. Iraah cuba untuk menahan air mata yang mengalir kerana iraah harus menerima kenyataan bahawa Wan telah pergi meninggalkan dunia ini untuk selama- lamanya. Insyallah kita akan bertemu di akhirat mahupun di syurga jikalau di izinkan oleh Allah yang Maha Esa. Amin

2010-06-30T17:53:00.002+08:00

You got blog? you used to tell me to link your blog and i always say later, later, even for msn too. Gosh, i really regret ):

Ridzuan Jumali, you left me. Gosh i keep recalling our memories together ):

You remember 14 february 2009 we watch movie together the movie called the other end of the line ? At Ang Mo Kio hub, you were my date, and i am your date.

Then we off to to take bus 88 to Pasir Ris cause i badly wanted to watch the stars by the beach. And you go ahead, anything will do. And we off the Mangroove to cari hantu katakan.

We went to ehub to eat and walk all the way to my home. That sweet (:

Remember how you say you wanted to meet me ? and i say NO?

Remember the times you used to study for your N level whereas i study for my O level.

And i teach you math, under the void deck we was date ? ):

Remember our first date ? Gosh Ridzuan Jumali all of that keep coming back in my mind.

Remember you fetch me from my work place, and how i used to say " i taknak jumpe you kan, and say boleh ugh, please ? and we decided to meet, but different capsule ? " And we meet at Pasir Ris to off to the beach to watch the stars ? Ridzuan Jumali, you make a big sacrifice for me. You willing to do anything to please me.

And how i used to avoid you in school.

And how you say to " Iraah you smell great.! "

And i miss your Adidas perfume.

And how you used to called me saying " hey i saw you wearing this and this , like stalking (: "

Then we meet again with Ricky and Lisha and off to Sungei Api Api and how we get screen by the cops?

The last time i meet you was last year, you came under my void deck, and wanted to meet me. And i say okay. we talk all. and you irritated me and i walk you off. How cruel am i ?

And we never call or text only msn.

But deep in my heart i am move in everything you did to me. Really, cause no guys can do all the above things for me, expect for you. I salute you Ridzuan Jumali

Then one fine day, a facebook friend post something about RIP Ridzuan Jumali and i when to see under search, i was hoping it wasn't you. And true enough, it is was you ): You left me Wan. Ridzuan Jumali , how were you death? what happened? i want to know but i don't want to hear any stories about you. and i cannot myself from crying ):

You now gone Ridzuan Jumali. You left me without any words. You cannot be alive back. Sesungguhnya Wan Tuhan yang maha besar lebih menyayangi diri kau Wan .

You lost mean alot to me. Please appear in my dream will you ? Cause i miss you. Damn much. Saper nak layan aku? Saper nak tengok wayang ngn aku ? Saper nak layan all my nonsense? Saper nak tgk stars by the beach ngn aku ? Saper nak belikan Old Chang Kee nye epok2? Saper nak dengar sumer mapek aku ?

Ridzuan although you are gone , you name, our memories are keep seal in my heart. Cause i never find anyone like you. I swear.

Thanks friends for hearing my stories. All i want is you people to sedekah Al Fatiha kepada Arwahnya itu sudah membuatkan diri iraah bahagia. Kerna doa ku adalah segalanya bagi aku.

Ridzuan Jumali, iraah sungguh berduka cita dengan kepergiaan mu, kerna kau telah membuat sejarah dalam hidup, sejarah yang manusia lain di sisi ini tidak boleh lakukan kepada aku. Semua kenangan antara kita akan ku semaikan di dalam hati ku. Kesedihan ini tidak boleh ku tahan lagi, setiap air mata yang menitis membuatkan aku semakin rindu pada mu. Aku ingin memeluk mu. Wahai Ridzuan Jumali, hadir lah dalam mimpiku dan dakap ku ): Kerna aku amat menrindui diri mu.

Al Fatiha untuk Md Ridzuan Jumali

[13/03/1992 - 25/06/2010] ♥

2010-06-26T18:48:00.002+08:00

I just view a friend profile saying a friend of mine is found dead?

SERIOUS? I am shocked ): really shocked. A few question when thru my mind.

Is that you?

Really you?

You left me?

You are gone for good?

Really in shocked. Cause i really cannot expected that you are gone, you drowned over at Sentosa. The last i meet you is when you came over to under my void deck that is last year. Which you bought me old chang kee curry puffs and we talk talk you tease me i cannot bear and i came away from you. Gosh i don't know that life is so fragile. You are yet so young and yet you went away before i do ): I am really sad. Why? Why?

IRaah harap tuhan dapat maafkan segala kesilapan Wan . And Wan ditempatkan bersama orang-orang beriman, AMIN (:

I am trying to accept the fate that you are gone for good my friend ):

2010-06-19T23:00:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Cough Cough. Gosh, keep coughing -__- SICK ):

Excited on going holiday later. Yesh. GENTING cum Kuala Lumpur. Whee. I got 260RM with me (: oh yeahh.

But somehow i got thing funny feeling, will i have a safe journey back to Genting and home ? Insyallah (:

To Monster : Take care of yourself eh. I am going Genting forever. And never come back.

To Jaws : Take care alright ? I see whether ada lolipop Shark eh ? ahaha. Sweet kan ? Iraah tau .

To Kashy B, Cia B , Yiyin B : I love you people to the core. i swear i love you and no words can describe it (: Cause you people make me smile and no people can replace you girls in my heart . You play an important role in my heart bbygirls. muacks.

Nyah : Nanti i dah kat Genting i carikkan you mat M'sia eh ?

Take care my friends, i will enjoy maha enjoy diri aku kat sana. nak naik roller coaster nak pergy SHOPPING.. Yeahh. Sukaaa. Yeahh.

SALAM my people, i be back on Wednesday malam insyallah.

ILOVEYOU with all my heart people.

2010-06-13T22:48:00.001+08:00

Man is too thoroughly an egoist not to be also an egotist; if he love, the object shall know it. During a lifetime he may conceal it through stress of expediency and honour, but it shall bubble from his dying lips, though it disrupt a neighbourhood. It is known, however, that most men do not wait so long to disclose their passion. In the case of Lorison, his particular ethics positively forbade him to declare his sentiments, but he must needs dally with the subject, and woo by innuendo at least.

Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself. But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires: to melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To know the pain of too much tenderness. To be wounded by your own understanding of love; and to bleed willingly and joyfully. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving; to rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy; to return home at eventide with gratitude; and then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

Your life would be very empty if you had nothing to regret.

So many people tiptoe through life, so carefully, to arrive, safely, at death

Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing.

2010-06-13T21:40:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAA BOOOO (:

Hello rusty blog. ILOVEYOU

Gosh, i know, it is hardly that i update my blog. Bukan pasal busy. Tapi malas.

I need have fun yesterday going JOHOR, super kecoh. Fun, looking at the abang-abang custom, how excited i am when i saw them . GOSH. then my sister minat abang chop passport from malaysia, please eh. then that guy blush. Oh abang custom yang check2 kereta pun. best! See how happy i am when my dad say he wanted to go Johor and i want to follow (:

Cannot wait to go to Genting Highland cum Kuala Lumpur this weekend. And i got nearly 300ringgit with me. GOSH. what i want to buy? So happy (: CAAANNNNNOOOOOOT for shopping. Gosh, want to buy many2 perfume, jacket, watch, shoe and make up too? Oh yeaaaah, oh yeaaah oh yeaaah..

I promise to stop this feeling from you. I promise. I accept the fact that i just need you as a friend not more than that. If you were meant to be with her. then go ahead. I am happy for both for you. Sure for good , i am the third party, and i know how i really hate third party in other relationship, and i try to put myself in her shoe. I am willing to let you go. Bye Jaws.

I am willing to let you go. Thank god that i only have a crush on you. Not more than that. But if she want to have you all by herself, i turn down. I really hope both of you last alright? Take Care

2010-06-08T15:34:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

OMG, i turn 19 today. So does FAHMY? Gees
I feeeel so old todaayy..
Thanks to everyone that wish me happy birthday. I terharu you know.
Cannot wait for FRIDAY and SATURDAY (:
REally thank you for the wishes.
Where is my present? I want present. PLEASE people. Gees (:
Gone cycling later.
ILOVEYOU.

2010-06-07T14:29:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOOO (:

Will be 19 in less than 24hours? And same goes to FAHMY too.
Thanks for the birthday wish in advance people, for those who are at camp, oh boys, thanks for the wishes, and how you know, i wanted you to wish on the day itself. JAHAT kan iraah?

Gathering on this Friday (: Oh, abang Aan di camp. hur hur hur. Bang cepat pujuk bang. haha

who is wishing me later? HAHAHA
Tak sabar siol akuu. HAHAHA.
19 maahh. Last year of teenage life dok!
Dah leh khawin sak! hahahaahaha
Okay, i know, mendak kaan?

Cannot wait for this FRIDAY.
Babygirls, i love you , i swear i did. I am just cannot believe that this is happening. ):
Sumpah, aku sayang korang, please don't be like this. Sumpah aku leh nanges sak. Only gods know. ):

It has been a year i know MONSTER? texting, calling, exchanging number with him, since 7 june 2009. During he is a orang khawin, banyak chicken. HAHAHA. Still no courage to meet me? Tsk.

I am trying to be happy for tomorrow, i swear. I promise not to cry. I promise that i will smile no matter what happen i will smileeeee (:

Cycling, sunset and stars tomorrow anyone?

2010-06-04T17:04:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Hello. I am free (: Freedom. But then. Still something in my mind. Maybe it is true, need to take a step back. From you and from everything. Exam is done. I think i did okay? Boleh gitu kan? Caan pass aje. But get A? erk. entaaah ehh..

Can i say i love you? Don't you think it is too late?

To someone, yeah, now you know the truth that i like you. I am just scared to take a step front. You seem going to take a step back. Then let is be. Perhaps you still miss your ex- girlfriend. Well i am soo soorry for everything. I really live you ,and i don't know why. Whenever we start our conversation i really don't know what to say. Gees

To Monster : , maybe you are shocked? A year has past between us. Don't you realise it? But then we have not meet up yet? Is that what you meant by telling me that you really love me with your your heart. If you say yes, to me, i really don't know. Cause all answer are in your hands.

If one day, you all receive a call from the hospital saying that i am gone what will you do? - Random

Can i have a man in my life that teach me religion purpose. Can i have a man that willing to be with me at all times. Still finding a man, that man, Still finding. Okay. I think i am done.

Oh yes, 3 days seems nothing to me right now. Bye

2010-05-28T22:07:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

I knoww. Suppose to study noww. But wait okaay?

I am studying taau. Sambil2.

Oh relationship make me scared suddenly ):

Oh nooo.

Ask me out anyone. Ask me to marry you? HAHAHAHA

I am being random at Facebook.

Okay, i think i am done. NEed to study Biology (:

2010-05-28T13:04:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

Hello, I know i did not update this blog, I am so sooryy

Why must i study for exam? Oh, exam, mind cramp. Need to study, Goo polytechnic . Then is poly there will be tons of project and presentation, i hate to present, i got stage phobia.

Erm, birthday coming soon, but i got no dating partner. Gosh, such a right time, yet always like this. Hate it. I want to go prawning on my birthday? But need money! I will be working next week. Yesh!

11 more days, Who will be give me surprise? Who will ajak me go out? Who will be my dating partner? Who will be watching sunset and star with me at night? hmmm

Okay peole need to study, update in 3 more days. Oh birthday, why? Kan dah single ):

2010-05-23T22:20:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOO(:

Hello. I am talking my baby sayang. She just got a job. Keje konon. Pergy belaaaajaaar dulu ugh sebelum nak keje. ILOVEYOU lesbian partner (:

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do

I've been stressing to fall back in love with you

I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through

But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe

You've been wonderful in all that you can be

But it hurts when you say that you understand me

So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

Sakit perut aku bbl ngn dier. Someone ask me my address.

Buat apa? Then when i ask for what? Kata dah hilang? I don't present just need you, your unconditional love. Can i? Just want you to prove me all wrong. That all. That i want.

2010-05-23T10:31:00.004+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

HAHAHA. Apa steam sak aku gambar2, mcm muka budak2 eh? No make up. No make up. I think when i was 15 til 16 this photo were taken. Yesterday i when mad? Webcaming with Yazid pak hitam, Fizan Selenge, and Monster. HAHAHA. Wearing spectacles. How buruk is that? With my hair. Darn, make up make up lawa banyak? HAHA. I realise i am getting more black? Darn, benci sak hitam. Dah macam anak mamak. Talking about mamak. Mau aje family aku sue kau, letak as newspaper article! Trying to bully my little brother, think what? We are stupid. I am not going to reveal what happen here. Cause internet can be scary. We can be famous overnight, for particular reason, an in the end the blame with go to us. Because we can choose things in life. Waiting for the tuition to be re-open, aku turun that tuition place and stand for the rights. Makcik2 sumer nak cakap apa cakap ugh. I don't care. Mummy say, ada nanti makcik headquarter ada, heboooh sia. AHHAHA. Mummy is getting crazy each day. And disturbing people even mat army? HAHAHA. She can go random when she get bored, add in stories all. Funny right?

I don't know why, i love my kening, not forgetting Teh Peng, i love you too. Mummy and Daddy when to chalet yesterday, and they survey the place for picnic next week. Weeeee. Picnic!!! Here i gooo. What must i wear? Make up? No make up? Jeans? Tights? Short? Gosh, need money, to buy more clothes please. I don't want to be label as minahrep, who does not have enough clothes in their closet. Giggle. Oh yes, i also want the dream catcher necklace. Someone say he wanted to buy for me, and the place is at my place. So i don't mind go hunting for that necklace with you. Laawaaaa giler tau the dream catcher necklace! Grrrrrr. Tempting apa iraah see.. Oh baby, exam are getting near to me. Am i prepare? Can i get gooody result? Oh, please. I want my Gpa to be atleast 2.8! Oh please. I need confident. Mummy and Daddy kept begging me to go polyclinic and be a Staff Nurse. Oh, my dream is to be a SISTER (: hahaha
Betul, please eh friend tkmu laugh. I am serious here! Hmmph!

You seems changed. You said you don't want to give me false hope. I am happy for you. Webcaming with you, was greaatt. So you know my perangai buruk at while. So please. Shhhhhh. It is only between us.
Yesterday me and Nadia survived until 2.30am. We talking, gossiping. What can a girl be? Gossiping kan? Hahaha. Terkenang aku time grandlink, saat lepak til midnight taking last train sumer. Hahaha. Weeeee.

Oh man, my birthday coming?08JUNE2010, Tuesday!

Give me present. Shower me with present. But first i need to save my money. To top up my prepaid and maybe go sheesha? Darn, i don't know how to celebrate my present. I want flower on that day can? And many many many many present. Please? I promise to be a goood girl.

Next week, anyone going for an overnight pinic? I am!!!
Meet me, find me. I am that girl studying. With family. Adoooi. And the best thing we gooo fishing!!!! Weeee. Lets catch some ikan pari okay? Yummmmy! Fresh!!

Monster gone to syarahan, awak dengar syarahan apa eh? nak tahu boleh. Hopefully your familt tak kuar eh?

2010-05-22T17:45:00.003+08:00

Study.

Study

Study. Marathon.

You really pissed me off. I hate you! I swear I hate you.

I did notes just now. Then wanted to study thru Etutor. Then the website, make me piss! I cannot view the powerpoint slide! WHY! How am i suppose to study? Teachers talking to fast at school. And they ask we to read tabbner? Oh nooo. Taaak sukaaaa! i want notes rather than tabbner!

Paham tak?

I am hungry? Gosh, i want to lose weight also. Dah geeemmoook! Okay, i am bored. Want to write notes again, and sing song. Gee.

Wee Wee Wee.

Stop messaging me. I hate you! I SWEARR!! GRRRR!!!!

AKU TAK SUKAA!!!!

to this particular person?

kalau dah add kat facebook, then delete, what the use of adding? Ni aku diamkan. Tapi kalau aku dengar sal kau bbl belakang sal aku or babygirls ke apa. I will confront to you. Eventhough kau tua ke muda ke. I don't care. I will stand my rights. Nanti baru kau tahu perangai aku mcm mane.

2010-05-22T14:22:00.003+08:00

Hello. Webby iwth Ex Boyfriend just now. Pantat you Yazid (:

You my history boy. HAHA

2010-05-22T13:27:00.003+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

At home, S-I-C-K ): Tissue here, Tissue there. Tissue all over the place.

Maybe your reaction already make me grown up? You said i am the one who keep making you heartbroken. You cannot accept my jokes. Then how? Then what can i do. Be a real girl. No. I will never do that. Cause i am for who i am. You cannot change me. You make me realise that I may not need you in my life. I got my family, friends and even babygirls surrounding me. They understand me better. They know me longer than you. They know my attitude, they accept for who i am. Unlike you, you never wanted to accept me, yet you asked me to changed. You cannot force me. Can we force love? Not right? Then why forcing me when i don't want to.

Forgive me if i being attitude with anyone lately, cause i am just pissed off. Easily! Accusing me wrongly, putting words in my word. And what else? Try me baby, i will give you shit?

And random guy out there? Listen properly. I may be a gerek kaki with ya. But still you got to mind with the words you use to me. Mind you, i am a girl, have respect for me. You are not respect a girl. Excuse me, i still got marauh okay? I am not like the other cheap girl you know out there. Please? Grow up. Think what if a person behave the same way toward your little sister or friend? Don't you feel angry? Feel like you are not respect a girl?

Cause i may not need love right now. I am still searching? Cause i knew it is difficult to find that Mr . Right?

2010-05-20T22:06:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Why do we complain
when we have everything.
We have all we need to live
a comfortable life.
But we walk around
with ingratitude and strife.

We should stop and think
about others,
not just of ourselves.
For it is in humility
that one discovers-
true dignity…

When tragedy hits
we all throw fits
for a minute or two.
But when it’s over
we brush it aside
and continue on this
fascinating ride of
life….

Gosh, i am sick now): i got severe running nose. Please anyone catch me nose? I am having headache): I am sick of everything. I need a doctor! Please?

2010-05-18T20:46:00.000+08:00

Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind].

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.

2010-05-18T17:53:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

Today is a very emotional day in school i guess? Teacher was talking about death or loss. My classmate share with me their stories. And i envy their courage to share their story. As for me, i am scared to share mine. i am too scared. I got no courage to share like them.

Now i kept repeating the song Tears In Heaven

Even you have gone for almost 5 years, your history and everything about you is kept in my heart. I miss you, i bet everyone else did. I cannot control my tears when people talked about you, thinking about you, going to your grave. I miss you. How i miss the 5 years incident did not happen. You gave us hints that you were going away from us, why did anyone notice that? After you are gone, then we notice that those were also hints you gave us. Although the society look bad at you. We don't. Although you got tattoo all over your body. We still treat you like normal people. You left us, in a surprised manner. You give hints. Why? Why?

You gave your friends all your clothes

You seek forgiveness for grandparents for the first time

You said to Yasir, it is the last time you were helping him to clean the window

You say to grandma that you are having chest pain.

You pass away on grandma birthday

I don't know, tears keep flowing now, i miss you, really miss you. I regret kissing your forehead when you i got the opportunity. I just got no courage. But i always have this in mind, orang yang pergy, allah swt, lebih menyayangi mereka. And i believe that. Allah love you more. What i can do for you is pray to god (: Imissyou Abang An-Nur.

Al-Fatiha

2010-05-17T19:39:00.003+08:00

PEEEK AAAAA BOOOO (:

Sorry for pain i have done to you, True i might be immature in love, true i still love him. What more could i say? You knew everything. You knew every answer i wanted to say to you. And i know with my sorry, it does not make any different right. You are hurt, because of me. I am sorry. Will you accept my apology?

My is spinning like round and round now. My head feel so heavy. Thank God, i can get off from Geron project. Feel like vomiting. I hate you pain. Tomorrow there is a blood donation held at school. So blood, off you go, you are going to be with other person who need it more(:

How, i wish time would pause yesterday. Chatted with him. Is the greatest. Although i miss you so much. Really ): Thanks for everything

Headache you are killing me ):

And i want to play puzzle with you. ):

Imissyou

2010-05-16T21:58:00.003+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

Hello.

Pictures (: went out with my sayang. Laughing like hell.

Singing our heart out (:

Thanks NADIA for the treat (:

And i reach home early yesterday?

Thank God, my Geron project is done.

Left with PM project (:

Okay, enjoy the picture people.

Kashy, i miss you. Next outing please?

Kter g menjeng please?

HAHAA

SHEESHA PEOPLE!!

i want this place. COOOOL kan?

2010-05-16T21:24:00.003+08:00

2010-05-16T01:34:00.001+08:00

PEEEK AAAA BOOOO (:

What can the love in my soul be compared to another wonderful soul which is so far and yet so close of my self?
What can this symbiosis between two souls can be?
What can love be when you feel you cannot sleep at night, that every drop of dew becomes a crystal in your heart, when every breeze of wind has magical meanings?
What can love be when you feel that you want nothing more in this world that to be with the soul you love?
But what can love be in other transcendental realities? What about our souls?
Are our souls a waterfall, a true Niagara or a smile, a flirt of an angel? Are our souls a mere mood of a fairy or a lightening in a summer rain?
Our souls could be all of this and much more. But what really happens in that transcendental reality when we feel we are truly in love, that we love so much that it hurts? That the air in the room is unbreathable, that the sentimental, spiritual or physical distances kill us? What happens when dawn find us sadder than ever, looking for an excuse or an argument for the person we love so much, our Great Love? What are all thses? What are the looks lost in the desert horizons of unfulfilment or those in the eyes that deeply loose each other in the others inside the souls?

2010-05-14T23:56:00.001+08:00

Took this love quiz (:

Your score is 40 %.

Your score indicates some uncertainty may exist.

Real love does not happen all of a sudden. When people say, ''We fell in love the moment we met,'' they actually mean that each corresponded to a certain ideal image held by the other. Most of us create these ideals in our minds whether we realize it or not. Thus, when we find someone who looks, acts and talks the way we imagined this special individual would, we are attracted- but that's all it is. Love can develop, but it takes time.

Jealousy is not a sign of true love. One of the greatest mistakes young people can make is to believe that the more violent the jealousy, the stronger the love. Some jealousy is normal between two people who care deeply about each other. But jealousy is really possessiveness, not love. Psychoanalyst Dr. Theodor Reik says that people who suffer acutely from jealousy often have an underlying sense of insecurity which leads to an overwhelming need to be loved. As a result, they can be extremely jealous even though they may not be in love at all.

Mooning, sighing and daydreaming are signs of infatuation, not love. Here's why: Real love is centered around the other person, with your whole behavior directed toward his or her welfare and happiness. Thus, a boy or girl in love can study and work comfortably, knowing he or she is thereby contributing to the other's happiness. Infatuation, on the other hand, is self-centered. The smitten one becomes absorbed in his own misery at being separated from the adored one or in daydreaming about her. He is in love with love, not a human being.

Love does not diminish when one is away from the loved one. If you love a person more when you are with him, chances are that your judgment is being influenced by the charm and excitement of his presence. When he is not around to dazzle you, some doubts emerge as Dr. David R. Mace, executive director of the American Association of Marriage Counselors, put it: if you feel this way, indications are the love is superficial.

Love is not really blind to a beloved's faults. The person in love knows and understands the other's shortcomings but cares deeply nonetheless. The infatuated person has a tendency to regard the adored one as flawless.

An unhappy home life can trick you into thinking you're in love. The files of marriage counselors are filled with cases of younger people who ''fell in love'' and married when all they really wanted was to escape from pressures they considered unbearable. For example, a young girl who is constantly battling with her parents sees her boy friend as the rescuing knight in shining armor who will ''take her away from all this.'' She isn't in love- she just wants out.

Love cannot always perch on Cloud9: it must be practical, too. Two of the most crucial elements in a marriage, experts point out, are money and children. Young people seriously in love must know each other's views on these topics. If a couple hasn't talked them out, chances are the romance hasn't reached the real love stage.

Love does not make lovers ill at ease. Dr. Mace declares that when the way you are impressing the other person is the dominant concern in a relationship, real love is still distant. When you know you are loved for what you are, you feel at ease in the other's presence.

Being companions in misery is not the same as being in love. Marriage partners should be able to share miseries, but such sharing is not in itself love. All too frequently, young people mix up the two and enter into marriage simply because each has discovered a fellow sufferer with whom to unite against an unfriendly background.

Love is a private bond between two people. Authorities agree it can't be real if one party permits intimate details of a relationship to be made public. It may be a bit of prestige in the group, but hardly love.

AND I AGREE(:

2010-05-14T22:23:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAA BOOOO (:

Hello.

I am bored. Currently on the phone with my baby girl that is Nadia and Yiyin (:

I miss them! Miss, Rindu dorang many. Not forgetting Kashy too. I miss korang all(:

Birthday coming up! Gees. I got alot of hot story to share with them. weeeee.

Tomorrow will be going tomorrow. Going down to Yishun and meet up my sayang and going to Study marathon with them. And lepak too. So which with be more? Lepak or study?

Adding more people to the conference, that is Mirza, Spoiler, Chipmores(;

Fuuuun~ My perut pain ): , This Mirza and Spoiler call each other abang? Gees.

I love you kelenjah (;

Giggle with them, gay boy on the process ): haha. please behave yourself eh? Pain, pain, sakittt perut aku bbl ngn dorang. Want to meet you people again please? I beggg youuuu...

I am now craving for Koke, Sheesha ( strawberry mangooooo ) please, i am craving for baby too i want to make my own junior, seeing my friends all getting engage all. I also waanntttt (:

Please?

Anyone care to fulfill my wish?

Thanks.

I want to lepak again with them, laughing like nobody watching us. Giggling all. Because that the only way i feel that my endocrine is working. I want to go meet you people badly.

I feel that i am losing you soon, you cannot accept the way i am. You accuse me wrongly, then i guess we better off end like this. Bye.

I am sorry. For the pain i cause.

I am really sorry.

Maafkan ku bila ku tak sempurna sayang(:

2010-05-13T20:25:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAA BOOOOO (:

Second post for the day?

Thanks for loving me cause you are doing is perfectly.

If i can't sleep today, will anyone care to put me to bed? Listen to my breathing while i sleep?

Who going to change my blog skin? Who going to make me laugh like i used to?

Been studying hard, and try to forget those memories of us.

Been telling myself, that you never loved me in 1st place, and it really works on me(:

How i wish there a person and yell to me, like an old friend told me.

Wake me up from this dream will you?

I beg youuu

I need a break, from everybody, need a shoulder to cry on.

I swear, i wish this never happen to me):

Birthday coming, and it hurt me alot.

Wish to celebrate with you, then all when down dooown the drain.

People mindset change, so do i.

I really wish, it never happen.

Like Sezairi Sezali say, now it is all broken):

macam free eh IRAAH, update blog aje(:

GEES. ILOVEYOU PINK LAPPY AND HANDPHONE, FAMILY FOR NOW. Muacks(:

btw, chatted with mama just now! I want a HOT PINK and BLACK silk for my HARI THIS YEAR! BLAAACK! AND HOT PINNK!! ANYONE WANT TO BE MY PARTNER?

2010-05-13T19:35:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOOO(:

Got school just now right? Then kene send back home, due to rashes? Ahead home as soon as possible, then off to change clothes all, asked mummy money and off to polyclinic. Then i was like garuk here, garuk there. ): like monkey.

Then at polyclinic there is a this poly guys i think taking mc, lazy to go school? HAHA

Tak sangka i can meet some person that iraah tak sangka umpe (:

Gees, at counter met, An, Gees, lama tak nampak abang polis itu, at first i he saw he then tgk semcm, then i like malu (:

HAAHAA. Okay (:

Next meet a old scondary ex mates, say him say Hello and smile. (:

Oh rashes you make my arm look buruk, like i got kurap on my hands ):

People think i minah kurap, got 5sen coins):

Burrruuukk! Menci! Taaaak sukaaaa ):

Please go awaaaay!

I promise not to garuk2 like monkey(:

Okay?

I am sooo happpppy! Since you left, i been sharing alot stuffs with mummy):

She is like your replacement, i know we are not meant to be together, if you really love me, you could prove to me wrong? But this? You let is goo. What more can i say? You lead your life, not me. I only can advise you not more than that. Then all depends on you to change to leave it? Tidak guna, berubah sementara saja. No likely all evidence i have toward you is right kan? Nevermind, why bother about people, who been a great actor for the past 1 year?

Okay, back to happiness now

I pass all my test(: and i did greeeaaaat!!!

I score wonderful!

Is it luck, or i really study hard?

I am haaaapppyy!

June holiday i am going Genting, as daddy promise take car go there (:

2010-05-12T20:19:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAA BOOOO (:

Sorry for the pain i caused?

Sorry for ignoring you.

Sorry for hurting you.

I am really sorry.

And my hotmail suck? Because i cannot sent my friends the things i done!

Fucking btol!

I heard that Zirca is having club and their theme was School Uniform?

And this fucker jerk, think i am a clubber so he say " tkmu mcm paham nak g club"

Not going to start any fight? Perangai nanak kental eh? Only immautre people finght back, and think it is cool, fight to get names? Then if i unfaithful day, their frind happen to know me, and he will say " kiwak, ni pmpn aku dah pernah carik pasal? " HAHAHAHA

i am not stupid okaay? I think carefully before i do anything, until those people?

So please think out of box eh? That tricks you use are like my mum's older generation trick eh?

I told mummy about this too, she say perangai mcm budak lagi.

Garapkan umur older than me. Tapi cara permikiran rendah(:

Please think. i will give you respect okay. IF you respect me as a girl and who i am. If you are not happy, don't bother saying in front of me. Keep that courage of yours. Cause it does not bring me any harm okay? Because 1 day when you realise your mistake, i will never forgive you. Never okay? Even you come begging to me. Then i will say who have the last laugh? Not whose using the brain to think rather than ass to talk with.

Never thinks you are good looking i give a damn about you? Just fuck off will you?

And sorry, if you think i am different. The outcome in my life told me so. I am too gentle with people that why people kept " pijak my head" without i realizing it? I am far being to kind any more (: Cause if my kindness is pay back, i am happy with it, IF my kindness is being destroy like hell, isn't that macam perangai immature people?

People nowadays, love to make me piss right? Thanks eh?

2010-05-11T19:31:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOOO

Can you people dengar lagu Broken from Sezairi Sezali?

TOUCHING ):

I CAN CRY!!!

2010-05-11T09:03:00.004+08:00

PEEEK AAAAA BOOOOO (:

Hello , goooody morning? I have a late night stuffs. Slept at 3am yesterday night. Due to something on. and i don't know things are getting better nor worst? What is going to be the solution to the problem perhaps? Can there e shooting stars so that thet can grant every single wish i asked for. Please? I promise to be good girl.

Currently in school, woke up at 6.40am (: Wake up, bath all. I think i am going to have fever sooner. Sleep late daily. Headache):

Chat with someone yesterday, thanks for the puji (:

Yesterday that person text me, i explain my stands clearly, and he look perfectly fine without me (",) And tears flow down, you knew i still love you, but then the beautiful you gave to me. You act still i am dumb. Like i am in love with a prefect stranger that using other people identity, so that i can accept you in my life.

Got no mood. Don't bother finding me , because i want to away from everybody):

I HATE ALL!!

FUCK EVERYONE OKAY?

CAN I GOO DRINK. PLEASE? ):

2010-05-10T00:38:00.002+08:00

Picture i took just now. webby with Daniel and random picture during studying. And yes, Chlesea win. ILOVEYOU

2010-05-09T12:34:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

I hate you, I hate you. Oh I hate you RASHES):

What did i eat wrong? Rashes on my hands, foot, leg all. Luckily not on my body ):

Still itchy, i wish i can put myself on the washing machine and spin all round and round till all dirt is out(:

Yesterday party? Don't mention it. it was great. The Secret Recipe Banana Chocolate Cake and food all. Sedaaaap! Dah mcm hapy raya kat rumah nenek. The kids are gerek also. The sang Justin Bieber song all the way. And imagine their age is about 5 til 12. and they remember lyrics that well! Thumbs up little cousin , i love you kiddos. (:

And not forgetting my uncles and aunty also gerek kaki, talk about our world. Really, i got a cool and gerek kaki family (:

I got to study later. I and 3/4 done my notes. Left reading them and understand them only. Oh god, please let me pass my PCA test. And currently my grade for PCA is B. Only a few percent til A. Please get my percentage to A. I badly need A.

Currently chatting with mata sepet, he really, crazy, asking me why i nanak beranak. Cause i cannot endure the pain. Sakit you tau tak sayang? Nak you pergy beranak eh? Please? Mata sepet, oh mata sepet. I love you okay? You go habiskan National Service dulu okay? Then can talk about future. But i waantt baby twin? Keep smiling when chatting with mata sepet. Oh i don't know why i love you.

Oh iraah, noo. study first, then work, enough money then boleh khawin.

Okay, i think i am done for today. Thanks mata sepet for making me smile everyday, and making me to forget everything about those hurtful past of mine. Thanks sayang (:

2010-05-08T19:23:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

M - O - T - H - E - R
"M" is for the million things she gave me,
"O" means only that she's growing old,
"T" is for the tears she shed to save me,
"H" is for her heart of purest gold;
"E" is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
"R" means right, and right she'll always be,
Put them all together, they spell
"MOTHER,"
A word that means the world to me.

If I could give you diamonds
for each tear you cried for me.
if I could five you sapphires
for each truth you've helped me see.
If I could give you rubies
for the heartache that you've known
If I could give you pearls
for the wisdom that you've shown.
Then you'll have a treasure, mother,
that would mount up to the skies
That would almost match
the sparkle in your kind and loving eyes.
But I have no pearls, no diamonds,
As I'm sure you're well aware
So I'll give you gifts more precious
My devotion, love and care.

No matter what I do.
You always stick with me.
When I’m down.
You pick me up.
You hug me.
You love me.
You tell me how to keep
My balance throughout life.
So I don’t fall down.
No one’s perfect.
Not me.
Not you.
But to me you’re as perfect as you’ll ever be

I LOVE YOU MY MOTHER, MOZDALIFAH BTE YUNOS AND ALL MY AUNTY THAT IS ALREADY BECOME A MUM (: HAPPY MOTHER DAY.

2010-05-08T18:22:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAA BOOOOOO (:

How often we wish for another chance
to make a fresh beginning.
A chance to blot out our mistakes
And change failure into winning.
It does not take a new day
To make a brand new start,
It only takes a deep desire
To try with all our heart.
To live a little better
And to always be forgiving
And to add a little sunshine
To the world in which we're living.
So never give up in despair
And think that you are through,
For there's always a tomorrow
And the hope of starting new

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk exposing our true self.
To place your ideas, your dreams, before the crowd is to risk loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair.
To try at all is to risk failure.
But to risk, we must, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The Man, the Woman who risks nothing does nothing -- has nothing -- is nothing.

There many things in life i yet a achieve, making my parents proud, achieve my highest qualification i dream of going to Junior College and take my degree (:
Hopefully it can be achieve.
And yes, i am missing you again now):
There no need to buy anything for me, because all i want is you (:

2010-05-07T15:42:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Weeee. Damn, i miss you mata sepet): sorry tadi tak angkat your calls, i was in class. Thanks for the patience. Thanks for making me believe about love again. Thanks mata sepet. Later we go out we go sheesha okay? Okay CGH nape tak call2 iraah nii! GRRR.
And i miss all my sayangs. Talking to Yatie my old kawan. wooohooo. Talking to her, (:

And NOOOOOOOOO, i think i don't want to give birth can? To painful. ): i am scared. Even my Daddy did not see Mummy giving birth to us. All delivering takes 4minutes but the pain is forever.
No to pregnancy, but i want to see my juniors. HOW?

Weee. I am happpyy! Pass Geron, And yes, increase me GpA point please?
I am hungry, i miss you sepet ):
Okay, will be studying later, and tomorrow to library (:

Okay, you people might be wondering why now sepet not F.A right? Cause i make myself clear with him. Nothing between us, true, i cannot stand your lies anymore. Your beautiful lies to make me happy. Not going to happen again.
And i am much more happy with sepet right now. So people, don't ask me anything about F.A okay? I am not interested anymore. I am much happy with my decision. I am a much better person. At least i know that sepet is not lying and he don't have to lie to make me happy, and he more sincere and gentleman. If you people would say, i am easy on falling into other, and yes, true, i am too easy trusting people, till i forget that i am not thinking about my future when i am with him.
And sorry for the crush word, i am just too stupid when i am with you. Now i am much more happy, more comfortable with Wan.

Wan, thanks for entering in my life in this moments, both me and you know that i really hate you at first look, but i don't know as days goes by, i really miss you. You asked me why, i say " i don't know why, i miss you , God bought you to me, i have to thank God that he really turn my heart clearly on people who i really can depend on, That why i love you Wan "

You might cheated me in the past, not point for you praying to God, when you are lying to yourself, and people surrounding, you might think God will forgive you, but the people surrounding you? Will you think they will forgive you? As for myself, i make my stands clear now,
I Siti Amirah Bte Mohd Nasir tidak akan memaafkan siapa, kalau dulu hamba Allah yang lemah ini boleh memaafkan sesiapa yang melukakan hatinya, dan berulang kali menlukakan hati ini, dan kini masa berubah, cara permikiran kita juga berubah, cara kita menyelesaikan masalah juga berubah. Di sebabkan berulang kali menipu adalah perkara yang tidak disukai ramai, menipu sekali sekala tidak mengapa, jika kalau menipu berulang kali untuk menyakiti hati orang yang tidak bersalah dengan nya adalah dosa juga. Tiada juga meminta maaf jikalau mengulangi kesilapan itu. Tiada perkataan boleh merubah cara orang itu berfikir, hanya hati yang tenang. Itu sebab tidak juga menipu, jika akhirnya segala penipuan nya telah di tujukkan(:
Dan sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga.
Membuat perkara yang tidak di sukai Allah, Allah boleh memerima taubat ataupun kesilapannya, tetapi membuat perkara yang tidak disukai orang, malah orang itu tidak boleh dapat memaafkannya walaupun apa juga pun.

Any way, i got tagged, i dont realised that i got tagged until i goda2 a tagged thingy, Crazy kan?
And looking at my baby photo, i am soo like Chinese. Tomorrow there a blood donation drive? Should i gooo?
Okay, i all i am done. up more when i am bored.
My sayang, conference call today please? i miss every one of you(:

2010-05-04T20:24:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

mata sepet, please help me buka your mata besar banyak? Terlalu sepet? Gees.
Sorry eh? Main2 aje. NAk ajak i dating eh? Naaak. Naaak please. Kita g sheesha eh? Please?
To be frank, i hate you when we first know each other. Stop you are irritating. But sometimes, you make me miss you every now and then. Thanks for everything. I promise to keep those things you told me in my heart (:
I love you mata sepet

Cepat2 larh habis Ns oi.. Gees.

2010-05-04T14:01:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Hello my love people(:
Currently in school, bringing my own lappy to school. And yes, i am doing my Geron project(:
Gosh, Project, Project, Project. As a leader, need to contribute ideas and give people role. Okay people i love you okay? Gees.

I am so happy! Remember i did 2 phase test right? The first phase test is 20 % and second phase test is 50%. So total is 70% , and i get 57% out of 70% happy kan? But still not happy, cause i want to get 60 % and above. And yeah, i did get A for my second phase test! Gees.

My next test is on the following Monday that is my PCA test, and my the following week is my Biology test.

I think i can get A for Geron(: Gees. Suuukaaaa!

And i miss you mata sepet .

2010-05-02T17:32:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAA BOOOOO (:

Relationship does not last.
Marriage on young couple does not last too.
All this, i don't want to get marry nor have a boyfriend yet.
I don't want to suffer. I am scared to have another heartache ):
If i got children i don't want them to suffer, just because of my husband nor my fault.
No no No No No..

Anw a unknown guy text me, Nak kenal2. He damn funny!
Currently i am lazy to mandi. Daddy out, with his friends, and he going home later bring food that is TULANG MERAH! Sedoooop kan kan akan.

2010-05-02T16:06:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAA BOOOO (:

Biar hati ini mencintakan mu. Dalam hayat ku kan merindu mu.
Biar pedih sakit, memiliki mu. Namun hati tak sanggup merubah.
Kau yang menjadi cinta selalu menjadikan rindu.

Biar tak ada orang tau, kisah cinta kita. Ku akan tanam sejarah yang kita lalui. Dan ia akan di basahi dengan tangisan yang mencurah dari mata ini. Akan ku abaikan diri mu di dalam kamar hati ini. Biar aku lalui ini semua kesorangan, membawa hati yang luka bersama ku.

Random thoughts on my mind right now. Gees.
when out yesterday. I am tired ):
But happy in another way, bought many things. Bought 2 jeans, 4 perfume, pencil that is cool, many hair bands, many hair clips, mascara, shinny eyeliner, 3 of sunsilk manageable hair lotion, actaully alot more where that came from (:

Gees. Weeee. Lalalalala.

Okay need to Study now.
I am away people.
Test, Project and Final Exam ):
I want my Gpa to get 3 please?
Thank You

Okay, done tagging people? Sorry for late tag (:

2010-05-01T15:11:00.001+08:00

I am scared. I am not ready. How? I am sorry.

2010-05-01T14:53:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Hello, Still in Singapore. Going Johor later then(:
Gees.
I am confused -_- Should i put on make up today? Not right? I am lazy. Be right back, want to my hair. Weeee. I am back (: Wear my 3/4 white pants, and my converse polo T shirt, and my adidas slipper okay? Woohoooo. And with out make up (: Gees. Sukaaaa!

Okay, biar hati ini mencintamu sayang.
I will be busy with school. I neglect everyone ): Sorry okay?
I am not free tomoroow, need to study for Geron tomorrow.
Okay bye people. Done for today (:

Anything find me handphone yeah yeah yeah yeah.

2010-04-30T23:27:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAA BOOOOO (:

Weeee. Today off to Malaysia with parents, the brothers, and grandmother. Weeee. Going to shop and shop. Buying new jeans (: yesh ugh! exchange 100bucks to malaysia ringgit. Do you think it is enough for me? Need to buy my perfumes i know, i am crazy perfume girl. that what the nursing student label me -_-, jeans, my contact lenses , ton and tons of different color hair clips, hair bands. and i don't know. Aaa yes! Shades! Shades! Shades! weeeee. Need shades badly -_-
My armani shades lost it at i don't know. Lucky if anyone found it.
Okay, i got my geron tsst on Monday! Wish me luck.
And the follwing next is my PCA test (:

Okay, look thru my notes, can i do it? To get A for my geron? Possible.
HAHA. Wish i get A okay? Cannot sleep today ):
Mummy keeping my Nursing money you know! She making my posb bank account to virgin state! GRRRR!
I am starting to eat raw vegetable (: weird kan? Someone called me sheep. Macam sial gitu kan?

Yesterday a person called me. Wanted to get to know me better, As usual malas nak layan, i say i am attached. Padahal, padahal. Then just now he called again, I was on my way home. Okay, random talk with him. He is irritating. Then he keep calling, now i feel like asking him to back off! GRRRRR!

I hate you. Whenever i want you , you are not around. Your always near me. I always notice to whenever i am on my way to school nor going back home. Never i miss to see you. You are so tempting. It is like you are calling me. I hate you. Really hate you. You are always around whenever i got no penny. I hate you Singapore Expo. I hate you Sales ):
GRRRR. I hate seeing you. I got no money, and there is sale! And there no news about my bond yet. How to go shopping like this? Hmmmm. i hate youu

bye. F.A just called. Gees. Want to download S.A. And challenge with him. HEHES

2010-04-29T16:57:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAA BOOOOO (:

Had my Biology paper just now. How i did it? No idea. Seriously! I got nothing to say -_- , Hard? Easy? Okay? Actually to be honest, i did not study for my MCQ question. I only study the long answer question. (: Weird right?

Took the early bus today, need to be sitted by 7.45am. And i reach school at 7.15. Early right? Hate to be late (: Then saw my Nyah ( Yasser ) in the bus. Damn, cannot study when i saw his. Seriously tengok muka dier then ketawa sorang2, and he maki me. Sial nya Nyah btol. GRRRRR. Then got this random Apek, asked Nyah " Boy, this is the brain eh? and some other questions " And as we know Nyah peh sial how kan? He was like Ah ya ya ya ya. I was covering my face using my note and kept laughing.
Called Monster 32 times today. And his handphone that need to trade with me is in silent mode-__- mcm kurangajar kan.

I miss sheesha. Damn much. I miss koke too. I miss spending time with my baby sayangs. Seriously, miss them):

To Wan, i am sorry again. Thanks for the advise, the jokes all. You are nice, cool and all. I knew i use to love you once. But then i gave up. Then He came in my life. You knew my story. How is goes right? You asked you can read my isi hati? Crying to you on that night i knew it might be nothing to you. But the challenges i face, the problem i had, it is just uncontrollable. You said you hate see my suffer. you care for me as a Bestfriend. You hate seeing me in this position. But who am i going to talk with? Monster is busy, whenever i called him, is not the right time, nor i he call me not at the right moment. You are a great friend Wan, seriously, having you as a opposite sex partner friend is all i need. You told me you found your true love, i am happy for you. Really happy for you.

Problems, can you run away from me? Please. I beg you ): For i wish i can vanish out from this world peacefully. I always say that there a solution to a problem. Thinking back. Jumping out from my flat is the best solution.

Yesterday, as i was walking i saw Khairulin. A never expected person. Walk pass him, he tap me, and say Hello. I smile, he pulled my hands, and told me, " i know you are happy now, i am happy for you " Kental eh perangai Ex Boyfriend. Then i text him that he is the most kental guy ever. He say i am in the wrong for making him fall. (:

Okay, bond, my application? result? Got to wait. Ghair got his bond already. I got to wait. Oh man, can i kill ghair! GRRRR!!! Please? Okay, the ward please give me good comment (:
Okay, i love you my alien Friends (:

Never i thought to be yours, til the day we are together, problems here and there, and i can't accept the fate that you are asking for a break, because you got no guts to hurt me again

2010-04-26T17:57:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

my teeth my back. No more pain. No complaining anymore. Got Biology Test on Thursday and Geron test on Monday ): Nanak buat test boleh? Please? I am actually at home hungry , Mummy cook no my favourite dish. Like always i never go for malay food (: Actually making myself Pizza instead (: Yeah baby yeah .

Okay this weekend going over to Pasir Ris Beach with all my cousins, pakciks and makciks, family gathering. Woohooo.
Gerek right? I want to play sun castle. And then at night off to Mangroove for look for Momok (:

Argh, menses is here. Need to eat my medicine before i start to cry due to menses cramp. Got Sport And Wellness tomorrow, skip it okay? HAHA.

Tomorrow i be coming to school late. Hate you that old teacher(:

Be making chicken seaweed and hot dog pizza (: after my brothers when to tuition. Gees (:
I am hungry. I need to eat vegetable right now. My bowel elimination is not really good):
Oh greeny food, i need to eat you people raw to get all my nutrients (:
Okay, i need to study Biology today. What to study eh? Hormones? Male Reproductive System? Or Urinary System? Gosh, please let the test to be easy. So i can score good marks (:
I am just lazy to study): somebody take my handphone away, pink laptop away. Give it back to me after my test is over (:
Boleh gitu eh? Kalau Mummy tahu, she dah happy eh?

Still deciding on where to go for holiday? Not letting Mummy to buy more gold (:

2010-04-25T17:44:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

now is almost 6pm. Ain't sure whether i got enough sleep or not.
F.A told me that i am like blur sotong talking with him on the phone.
And want to rembat me? Perangai mcm SA sak(: HAHA

Okay story time.
When fishing just now right?
The place was so scary tau! Ain't know that Singapore has racing trace? HAHA
And there were cars, motors vrooming at the road. Wohooo.
When to bench to sit, there funny think is there were Chinese word and a date on it. Dah macam Batu Nisan tau on the tempat sandar of the bench. HAHA. And came a stupid man with a friend, the friend go telan 2 bottle of ubat batuk, and the stupid man go fishing using boat and jala, that play cheat okay? And only us there fishing. No other people.
The best this our handphone is on My Maxis, Telecom? Malaysia! HAAHA. The fishing area is opposite of Malaysia.

So bored and off to Bedok Reservoir there to fishing
there were Red Talipia, Snakehead, Catfish and few fishes too. Wow, the tempting of caughting the fish was like want to jump and caught the fish using my hands. And there was people using life frog as baits! OH OH OH OH OH!

and fish fish fish fish, til the sun is up. And sun was shining. PANAS DOK!

Oh my, school stressing me up.
Done a bit of the my project yesterday. Okay, gonna tell my group about it tomorrow. Til now i did not eat any proper food(:

And my picture show my about sings of falling in love? No sure, no love moment for me, til i found a job and stable pay. And think of starting new life. Want just want to get to know guys only. No feeling, No false hopes, No high hopes, No perasaaning thingy again. Okay IRAAH?
Bear in mind, ain't no relationship anymore. (:
Yeah baby yeah (: get my future first then love. Without future, ain't going to survive in this world

Dad told us to find any air tikcet over the internet with hotel all. That cost 3k and below for the 5 of us. Which destination to go? Want to go! Please! Take Air Plane Again! I want! NAk! Nak! NAk!! My daddy say if i don't find the air ticket, daddy will buy mummy gold with that 3k! Oh No! Mummy, hands, fingers, neck is full of gold! Stop Adding gold on it. It only make mummy feel heavier. And she will be walking slow! HAHAHA.
I want to naik plane again, rather than dady buying mummy gold!

Where my bond? Changi Hospital Please Call ME!!!!!

2010-04-25T10:50:00.004+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

Hello.
I am tired. When you people read this i am off in lala land.
When fishing at 11pm til 11am. Wow(:.
Caught? HAHAHAHA
When to Changi Village, Kranji Fishing area, Bedok Reservoir then home sweet home.

Had fun. Yes i did (:
Okay, the lastest photo, with out make up and with nerdy spec (:

need me sleep now(:

Bye people, i love you.
Take care.
Update when i am awake okay?

Need to find my flight tickets lagi.
Adooi.
Holiday during June, nak naik plane lagi.
yeah, yeah. yeah

2010-04-24T19:19:00.003+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOOO (:

Firstly sorry for my updating this blog for a long time. I am busy due to school. I am tired. Seriously, tired. School. Project here, Project there. Test here, there. Everyday go home late even-though school is quite near. School? Glad that i got cool teachers. Minus off my Project Management teacher, i really hate her. She talk to herself i guess? Keep repeating the same thing over and over again, i guess she has dementia? HAHA.

I am having tooth pain? OR may i say it as wisdom tooth? Anyone plug it out for me?
Please? Swollen on my cheek. My right cheek is bigger then my left cheek. I have to eat porridge the whole time or just soup? Wow. This really kill me this time round. Call polyclinic yesterday, they told me that i cannot go for my tooth check up because it is fully booked. And called the hospital too, they told me i need to have appointment. And they say wisdom tooth need operation to plug off the tooth. ): Oh NOOOO.

Okay, i am sorry for anyone who is affected by my tight school work. Because i got no time for you. I got things to do. Rarely spent my nights with you. I am so sorry. Sorry for neglecting you. And i am sorry for not be there for you like always. You may found my replacement or what. If you were with other person, i wish you all the best. And yeah, i still call you 6.30am in the morning daily. Take care.

I may or may not be on my blog, facebook , msn and all. As i got no time. Left with my weekend for my family times and studies. My weekday are burn, the latest i reach home is 7pm. And the earliest i reach home is on Friday that is 1.30pm. Need to be out of my house at 6.45am daily. How tiring i can be?

To my Friends, i am sorry for my calling or texting you people okay? I am really sorry. I really miss everybody of you. Perhaps during the holiday we will be going out? If i am bonded, i will treat you people on my 19th Birthday? I love you.

Not forgetting about the people who really hate me. And yeah? Talk back about me? Go ahead. I am sick of your immature nonsense. Okay bitches nor jerk, who talk about me, please talk bad stuffs okay? Thanks you.

2010-04-11T18:38:00.004+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Oh photo. Took then yesterday. During aunt engagement function. And hair? Don't mention it okay? These are scorpion hair. Lovely is it? I love this hair. Do you know that i have not untie my hair yet? I want to have curly hair. Yeaaah.

Okay, ate alot yesterday. Yummy. Nenek cook roti kirai, the malay cakes all, mummy cook awol2, mango pudding, and there is Shepherd pie! And there also Chocolate cheese cake (: Yummmyyy!! Look at me, i grow fatter. Oh man, my diet for the past few day, i think did not pay off. Well i am getting fatter. I need a slimming routine instead? No pills, as Adam, did not allow me.

Yesterday, not sure what time i went to sleep. Watch, how to train your dragon, Ju-On ( black and white ghost ) , Alice in Wonderland, Adnan Sempit, Santau. Got to me damn boring right? Adam accompany me yesterday, to watch Ju-On. (: And he damn irritating. Asyik kata " abeh tak tau ? " HAHAHA

Oh my Dior, school start in less than 24hours ): Have combine lecture 1st thing in the morning! Oh my prada! School school, school, school, ):

F. Adam. HAHA. F is not fuck okay? You know, i know okay Monster? Thanks for telling me that time. I felt much relieved (: Thanks you. Reading back the text message, i know you meant well. And i love you Monster.

I am fat. Not a barbie doll. How i wish i can slim back. Need to have that figure back! I need it! please, i say the magic word already right? PLEASE (:

This was love at first sight, love everlasting: a feeling unknown, unhoped for, unexpected - in so far as it could be a matter of conscious awareness; it took entire possession of him, and he understood, with joyous amazement, that this was for life.

unknown, unhoped for, unexpected - in so far as it could be a matter of conscious awareness; it took entire possession of him, and he understood, with joyous amazement, that this was for life.

2010-04-08T11:52:00.003+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

Hello People of the Earth(:
Alien IRAAH reporting. HAHA, Alien Konon .

Today as to be confirm will be going out with my Nursing Mates (: Oh My(:
Oh lovely. Nursing people going out together. HAHAHA. Sweet gitu lorh. And off to library to , without make up, oh boy, Adam confirm suka bila aku tak pakai make up. But too bad. With be pitting up my make up later. Dress properly later. Yeaaah.
Left, Me, Farah , Nyah , Zeeq and Hubby will be going. Oh man, i promise not to sheesha to much today. Thanks god , Adam did not feel curious when i complain to him that why chest hurt so much. I think it is due to too much sheesha on that day, til i feel a bit HIGH (:
I promise, not to sheesha too much today okay? And i am sorry. As usual talk with Adam yesterday, til there this particular time when it is already 2 am and he cannot sleep, so what i did is force like to sleep like a baby! Serious. HAHA. When he called me, i asked him to sleep at the phone, as that is the only way he can sleep always.!
Okay, girl if you are planning to grab Adam, and when he suppose to sleep and he cannot sleep, just talk nonsense to talk on the phone , and ask him to stup up and close his eyes and sleep. Ignore all his talking. (: Then he will be off to sleep.

Okay. Okay, i did 1 foolish thing today. I dress up beautifully today. Then walk off to the bus stop, then when i saw the bus coming, i double check if i got my ez-link card ready, And yeah, i left my ez-link card at home): FOOLISH isit? HAHA. pantat mu Adam , label me as Selenge (:

Yesterday Adam turn into a sweet Monster, i did not know what up with. Do you know? He turn Sweet, mushy all. He turn into a romantic guy yesterday? Play true or dare on the phone. And it is hilarious! HAHAHA. Seriously , Funny (:

And yes, Saturday is singing time(:
Okay time for Adnan Sempit(:
ILOVEYOU reader,
Tag me out Earth Reader(:

Oh gosh, forget to mention that i have download cool gadgets at my lappy(: i can watch lappy at my tv. I got CPU smiley and all (:
COOL eh? I knew(: Thanks to Adam nagging that i cannot download more cool gadget(:
Planning to Download SuddenAttack, so i can fight with ADAM (:
HAHAHA

Gone sheesha, while the kid are out studying(:
No school please?

2010-04-06T17:42:00.002+08:00

PEEEEEK AAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

Yay (: I feel like blogging in Malay? HAHA. Sungguh tak kene Iraah. Okay Iraah cuba eh? Hari ini aku rasa amat bosan kerna aku bangun dari tidur lambat di sebabkan kakak aku yang jahat. Tak Boleh sak! Oh Man, my Malay get suck each and every day :( I bet if i sit for a Malay paper i will get E8 , ohh Good bye A1 ): Macam mane eh? Talk with people in English, With family also English. Must brush up my Malay. Anyone, see me around, talk to me in MALAY please!

Oh, today routine is the same, sleep at ? i am not sure what time. Stupid cousin called yesterday, to accompany him talk something, okay, so i did accompany him. Call Adam just now morning, as i ain't sure what time he want me to wake him up, whether it is at 5 or 6.45 am. So i called in back while he was snoring away. HAHA. Don't be mad baby, if you read this. And stop smiling okay? My leg is having pin and needles ): Pain, Pain. SAAAKITTT!! So, i called Adam up at 6.45am and he wake up, suara dier, oh man, so seducing! HAHA. Perangai eh IRAAH. Okay, then Adam call me at 7 plus, sorry, i was busy dreaming of EHEM eh. Then he leave me a text saying to tect him when i wake up. Bet he going to scold me. Hopefully he get off tomorrow. So that he can remind his mum to book 2 ticket to watch Ju-On black and White. I read the preview thingy is sound scary. And ghost, Adam biggest FEAR. HAHA

Oh please, get off tomorrow): But i am not too happy because, no more high hope for me anymore.
I text him just now, and he did not reply back probably busy angkat besi eh? Nak test machine to call him. Jeng, Jeng, Jeng, tak angkat pun. Pantat btol ! GRRR. Mau aje aku pump dier. HAHA

Today is Tuesday! Yesh, my favorite day. Got dating later. So ain't be blogging and face-booking.
Maybe will be with lappy after 9.30?

Mummy told me " anak dara, tak bgos keluar then balik malam2 tau " I was like ala , mummy not every time apa. And iraah tak over night right?

How , i miss over night sometimes with my family, at chalet. Hopefully, my family will be organizing chalet, oh please, i miss those time, swimming i mean from morning til night, sleeping together, bbq all, seacrhing for ghost in the night, sharing stories all, watching late night dvd, how daddy sanngup pergy beach road to buy tulang and the red mee. How the mummy all cook together at home. And really, when there someone birthday we mean saboing the person by flour and throwing them in the pool. HAHAHA. Really fum. Imagine 9 family staying in a bungalow. But it was damn tired. Seriously tired. Really miss chalet at Aloha Loyang. Miss that.
My birthday will be celebrating this year. YESH. YESH. (:

don't why when i talk or text you i come to live?

2010-04-05T23:14:00.003+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

Yeah baby. still on holiday mood. Can i have attachment instead of school please? Somehow i prefer attachment rather than school. Oh Mummy keep nagging here and there. She actually bought me a box, that is pink in color. Wohoo. She just knew that i adore pink very much. Currently on bed, with my pink lappy and texting Monster. Monster is mad at me. Reason? HAHA , cannot reveal here. I have not link my Monster and Alien blog yet.
Damn, so many things to do this week, so many things left. And my studying? I actually forget that i am a Student Nurse for a awhile. Oh School, can you like burn down? Or so many lizard in school that why it is closed? HAHA. I love staying at home. Monster scold me another day because i reach home at 12.30 in the morning. Oh, I am sorry. Oh Fadd, padan muka kene on night duty(:
And this headache is killing me, my tummy started to start the pain again, on the same spot. Stupid gastric, makan salah, tak makan salah. Which one is true i also don't know. PANTAT, JUBO larh. Oh man, looking at my skin currently and i am getting darker): dah mcm anak keling sak. Mummy always kata " Iraah, tak jaga kulit, nanti dah mcm anak keling eh? " Oh man, need my whitening lotion sooon! Oh lotion, where are you? Or i guess i need Moon Tan. I am grateful that i my face is less oily. Woohoo! I lioke. All thanks to me because daily proper washing face. Oh yesh, i need my facial treatment now. Gosh, mummy help me, i need facial treatment from you! I want my face to be like you. Free from pimple and not black (:

Okay, yesterday i slept late. I mean really late, super late, i slept at 4am in the morning, wake up at 5am to wake Monster up because he wanted to pray (: I really thank God, cause of his changed. And people keep back from him. Then i don't what happen. He called me back, i knew i answer the phone, but i don't know that he talk to me regarding what? It last a quite long time also. Bet, what i am talking to you just now baby. HAHA. Woke up at 4pm. Mummy was like " Iraah, anak dara tido tak seburuk Iraah larh " I was laughing when i began to open my eye for the day (:

People like to talk back. I don't mind i am being gossip by people. But talk back, and really bad. I mind that. Seriously. I can tolerate with that a few time, but then when it started to get to my nerve really, that person will get it from me. Mau aje aku PUMP aku dier. Chey, fierce apa nak pump2 okay. HAHA. Stay away from my enemy (: Yeaah baby. Oh Iraah, perangai no minah rep eh? No future doh. HAHA

Okay, Monster, really gone crazy today, Accusing me of having another Monster. Reason? I did not text him the whole day. Yesterday we chat using IRAAHADAAM91 that is me. And he using ADAAAAMIRAAH91 . Romantic right? But that is my past. No point haunting about my past, when i knew it is hurting me. Maybe Yiyin is right. We are pretending in this whole. Pretend to be happy, Pretend to say " i love you " . Pretend. Pretend to do this and that.
Really, the game pretend is fun something.

Now, pretend is the game of love(:
Still miss you, but i knew you don't feel what i felt right?
No point liking a person, when you know you will get hurt in the end

Will be updating more later, i am awake (:
Oh, I love You

2010-04-05T17:09:00.003+08:00

Okay, where my trademark?
where my PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOO?
lost?
Did i show you my Sister wedding?
Next post okay?

2010-04-05T00:23:00.006+08:00

PICTURES(:
HAHAHA.
Mrt Bugis meet, Off to sheesha at Al-Nasrin, Watch soccer match, Send off Yiyin, Walk to nowhere, lepak at National library, Last Train, Cab home, Chat with kelenjahs, Sleeping time (:

No teeth?

With teeth?

Nyah apa you punya code untuk iphone larh

WOOHOOO. Cuta apa anak sdare aku ( Mirza)

My Boyfriend! Akid say PEACE!

Nadd plus IRAAH (:

Kan IRAAH dah lonely ni

Yeaah, Look at me, TIRED):

I SUKA GAMBAR NIE

How cute is my boyfriend, headphone, orange t-shirt, ice-cream,
luckily never kiss me (:

Me and Nyah ( he soo funny)

I have done with all. Oh Man i am tired): Seriously tired):
I swear to you. I miss you. He sleep on the phone, while i am listening to his breathing, How sweet.
Craving for sheesha is done, oh man this Wednesday sheesha with nursing mates(:
Okay, next Saturday Koke Time.
Singing till our hearts are out! WOOHOO LALA!!

2010-04-05T00:11:00.003+08:00

WEE(:
how can i describe yesterday moment? i was having the blast of my time. i swear to god! my kaki gerek really make my laugh like hell. haha

okay iraah story time

suppose to meet at 3pm, ended up meeting at 4pm. Took photo and all. My boyfriend Akid was there. Look at the boy that have the same t-shirt color as me. Romantic kan? HAHA. After that Nyah drag me to topshop to look out for his baju because malam he want to go club. Then ada hati nak ajak aku g club? Oh No, saya tak club eh? Then off to sheesha (: We bought strawberry mango and peach mint. The asap was like OH MY. Then i realise that my asap is not as much as them. Then iraah sedeh larh. Nyah belanja us with the finger food. Sedaaaap dokk!! Kenyang sak aku. Then Coco ( the waiter ) asked " do you want to stay till soccer? " We are like, later got score, and yesh, tak yah duduk kedai kopi. HAHA. Then off to teman Nadd to fetch Mirza my anak sdare at Bugis MRT and bought mentos for him, as i cannot find the lolipop, Aunty sorry okay? Anak sdare 26, makcik 19, mane eh silapnya? HAHA
After that we sheesha, sheesha, then the place started to be packed with people becasue the came to watch soccer, Man U V.s Chelesea. And there are alot with boy. I can count the girls in the place using my fingers only. SERIOUS! When Chelsea score goal, the guys are shouting like mad, til i look around and cover my ears. NOISY): The environment was cool. I lioke (: We were sheesha and watching soccer. Gerek isit? Til Mirza, was too happy to sheehsa and hestarted to sedut the asap but there were no arang! Oh my, noo over confident eh abang? Then saw 2 nurses there. I was like looking at him, smiling. HAHA. Muka dier macam Sezairi Sezali kan! Woohoo! After done with the soccer, we went off. Walking, around Bugis, don't where to go. Yiyin had to go back home. We sent her off to MRT station. And Mirza bought me and Nad, Mac flury ice cream. Sedaap. THANKS , i lioke your senyuman. Giggle. We walk, walk , walk, went to Cheers to go buy Cola- Cola. We asked each other where to lepak? We don't mind sitting anywere. And we walk walk to National Library to go lepak. We sit there. Left me , Hafiz , Nadd, Mirza. And i am the youngest there. Surrounded by the tua's yesterday (: Giggles. Lepak there, gossip, i don't know that the guys gossip are much wrost than girls! Like we have changed sex for a awhile (:

Gossip, gossip, gossip. Have fun yesterday. Really did (: And i went home taking last train i guess? Then off to take cab, so it nearly 12.30am. Gees. Balik kene marah with Monster more rather than parent. Then chat with my KAKI GEREK til 3am. Then off to bed. LALALAND(:

2010-04-04T15:05:00.000+08:00

gees..
will be updating blog later?
promise.
i am tired):

2010-04-01T19:11:00.001+08:00

Since he has been reading my blog.
WHERE MY TAG BOARD ):
I WANT MY TAGBOARD!
PLEASE.
I SAY THE MAGIC WORKD ALREADY RIGHT
P-L-E-A-S-E
PLEASEEE!!!
TAG BOARD PLEASE!
NO FIRE IN THE HOLE.
HAHAHAHA

2010-04-01T18:52:00.003+08:00

Say you love me, Say you love me
Then put it in a love song
Say you need me, Say you need me
Then write it in a letter form
Say you want me, Say you want me
Then text me on the cell phone
Say you love me, Say you love me
Then put me in a love song

If you love me baby, Work it out
Gotta work it baby, Work it out
If you want me baby, Work it out
Gotta work it out, Gotta work it out

If you want my love and all my time
Part of my plans and part of my mind
All of the things that you wanna do
But make sure your love for me's true to you
Oh, If you how me; make me believe
So many possibilities
Oh, We can look to infinity
If you wanna be with me Ohhhhhhh

if love is out there for you? What will you do? Do you ever think your lover can accept your black history like other people do?
Accept a person in your life, mean you will go thru thick and thin with that person and all.
Prepare the worst. Accept all challenges because you will never know that person really put hope on you. But if you hink you were playing around, then stop whenever you are, cause you might hurt that person in and out, Then when the person left then you start to miss her or him and really treasure him or her in your life. And regret what you have done

2010-04-01T17:55:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

Happy April FOOL!
Gees(:

Ex boyfriend got prank by me(:
WOOHHOOOO

It happen like this i was waiting for my Miami Ink then i stared to remeber that when the clock strike 12am it was APRIL FOOL (:
Waiting till it is 12am then i text him

Alien : Woohooo(: Si dektu sound matair tadi, And i accept it! Cita2 nak matair ngn si dektu akhirnya tercaapaaai! YEAAAH! yay yay yay!
Monster : You're attached?
Alien : Yeaaaaaaaah (:
Monster : With who?
Alien : Hariz, Why?
Monster : Ohh.. Congratz then?
Alien : HAHAHAHAHA, takyah heart break okay? And happy april fool. Yesh, you fall into my trap. Yeaaaaah. Nah, tak matiar ngn saper2 larh. I stil love you larh Monster.
Monster : You almost make me wanna shut down my phone and just throw it away. But its okay, Happy April fool too Irah.
Alien : HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA
Monster : Irah.. You suck for pranking me kay? But i still love you kay?

HAHAHAHAAHAHAH(:

Yeaaah.
Zila at last she called me.
Asking if tomorrow i am free for a work interview!
Yeaaah, Akak nak keje nie,
Nak pergy shopping, koke, sheesha nanti. HAAHA
She suggested Adam to work, but then i say NOO, Adam better angkat besi (:

Oh MAn, i am bored now, have not bath yet. RABAK?
Gosh, i want to go out lah.
PLEASE, i want Universal Studio, minus off Roller Coaster):
I am afraid of height):
And afraid of Undertaker too.

TATA (:

2010-03-31T17:24:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAAA BOOOOOO

Hello Earth Creature(:
Stomach cramp here and there, ain't sure whether it is gastric pain or air in my stomach.
Adam suggest me to drink Zinger Beer, told Mummy just now and she like " you crazy want to drink alcoholic drinks again? " I was like " OH Mummy No No No No No , not that beer! You know like root beer? "Mummy kental right? Thinking her only anak dara will go back to that black history again. Hurtful moment! OH no, stay away from that situation again.

Okay, i am bored. Actually in dilemma. Cause Daddy plan to go Johor this Saturday, then i got my gathering with them. Oh NOO ): How? Help me. Pleaaseee. Oh People How? Sigh

Talk with Him yesterday night. Thank God, he sleep yesterday, it has been 2 days he have not sleep yet. And talk, i miss him, His kisses. Before put down the phone, he told me " I love you"
but then, ermm, nothing. Try not to think negative about it. yeah? And yeah monster hope you stay long in this job yeah? Angkat besi? Biar badan sapau okayy!

Monster gave in this song, Forever Ain't Enough by J. Holiday like goes something like this

Eeveeen though I don't show it girl, I juuust want youuu to knoowww, that even if we fight a million times over little things, we can still make it better I member what I said when I gave you that promise ring, that imma love youu forever, I fall for you deeper everyday, feel it now girl more than ever, but with our type of love, forever aint enough

I've been searchin my whole life, I'm lucky I found youu, no better girl too you aint leavin cause forever aint enough you see me for who I am and not for who I'm not no, I'm tellin you that I'm sooorry if I tend to treat you the wrong way but I care you know my heart is there.

And i ask him to listen this song , I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat and the song goes like this

I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
But I never told you
I just held it in

And now, I miss everything about you
I can't believe that I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you

I see your blue eyes, everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to, when I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me

Okay my people, i think i am done for today, still cannot make up my mind.
DAMN. DAMN DAMN.
):
How. How. Bagaimana?

Jika cinta itu suci, biarlah ia pergi, jangan sesekali memanggilnya kembali,
Biarlah ia datang dengan sendirinya.

Oh did i tell you that i am currently on a strict diet(:
No rice. Only wholemeal bread. Or perhaps if i eat rice that will be my only meal on that day.
Then no more eating (:
If i am hungry eat fruit(:
YEAAAHHH

Nursing overall result for year 1 is out(:
COOOOOL
Applying Bond.
And change Handphone all.
Being independent(:
WOOHOOOOO!
Please CGH accept me. I know i tak pergy that time peh interview because i have not get my overall result(:

TATA(:

2010-03-30T16:13:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

LOVE? How do i define it? Dictionary define love as,

1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

3. sexual passion or desire.

4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?

6. a love affair; an intensely amorous incident; amour.

7. sexual intercourse; copulation.

8. (initial capital letter) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.

9. affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.

10. strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.

11. the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.

12. the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.

So how do people define it? Mummy talk to me about love just now.
I told her, ain't thinking of love now want to concentrate on my studies. Confess to mummy that true i know a lot of guy she even confused when i show her my text message and my facebook.
Mummy ask me " are you too hurt or scared to be in love again"
Laugh at mummy and say iraah tak tau, iraah rasa dah tak boleh percaya laki lagi, after dia dah buat kat iraah, iraah sayangkan die, percaya kan die ( held mummy and cry in her arms ) tapi dia bilang kat satu pompan yang die mainkan perasaan iraah , dia tak serious ngn iraah. Selepas iraah korbankan segalanya untuk dia.
Mummy told me Tapi iraah tak boleh salah Adam kan? Ingat apa mummy selalu pesan, jangan salahkan orang itu sebab things will get worst between you two. And why drag 3rd party? Biarlah dorang, dalam dunia ini memang banyak orang mata merah. Tapi nak buat apa dah lumrah dunia kan?Smile and hug me while crying in her arm
Dah Dah Dah, takmu cry lagi larh. buruk nah cry.

Mummy say if i we meant to be if Adam, we will be together, kita merancang, tuhan menentukan. Takmu sebab Adam , Iraah benci sumer laki, dorang tak bersalah, Takd orang bersalah. Tak salah kita suka pasangan orang lain, tapi orang itu tahu batasnya kan.

To me, to love a person need trust, without trust things will get complicated. And the other party need to ensure they never break promise when the make one. Once even a small promise can hurt a person heart without the lover realizing it.

Done for today, quite a long post today,
Might be going to be a deejay for today. Tune in okay? Chase me in MSN yeah?
http://listentoherenjoywithher.yolasite.com/
Forever Ain't Enough
I Never Told You

TATA (:

2010-03-29T18:17:00.001+08:00

People go everyday not knowing what they may lose
Not knowing if that day someone will bring them bad news
I’ve known many in my life that have been through heartache
Scared from the nightmare they may never awake
I know you have been through a lot and I am here to hold your hand
Through all the trials life has in store, by your side I shall stand
Although I can’t erase the scars, I hope to help them fade
Don’t forget all the good memories, all the smiles you have made
I know it’s hard to say goodbye, to finally let them go
Missing them and praying that they know
I know it’s hard to lose someone to know they are no longer here
To wake every morning having to face a terrible new fear
I promise to lift you up whenever you are down
I will place a smile on your face whenever there’s a frown
I love you unconditionally you are my very best friend
All the pieces to your broken heart I will do my best to mend
Lives are lost daily, I know it isn’t fair
Just know you will always have someone that truly cares
One day you will join them in heaven, and then you’ll finally see
That through all this time you’ll always have a friend in me

I miss you Bestfriend ):
Md Ridzuan aka Japz
Bestfriend since 2005 til now
I just miss youu dude

2010-03-29T15:21:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

ILOVEYOU
I am just bored. Holiday? No plan? I think i need to sing? Anyone bring me out for karaoke please?
I want to sing. Let go out at Boon Lay and sing okay? Only 8 bucks for 2 hours. Cheap right? I KNOW. I KNOW.
Looking at the past blog between me and him really bring out tons of memory. Both sweet and sour. He make me grow up, think out of the box and all. Thanks Monster.
Only if i can turn back the clock, and read his heart, that will be easy and good.
Any way, i cannot wait for this coming SATURDAY!
Will be out with the KAKI GEREK (:
Danny Dude will be coming, damn! i miss you beruang, miss your bapok in action scene
BoyNick will be coming, HAHAHA, kekasih gelap?
Nadd the main organizer, she cannot be late. haha
Yiyin will be coming, the nenek, old inside, young outside
ButterFactory will be coming, my so called anak sedara , i wonder he is 26 whereas i am 19, then aunty dan anak sdare, mane silapnya eh? HAHAHA
Nyah Nizam not comfirm, because he will be out to Universal Studio, DATANG UGH NYAH!
IRAAH will comfirm be coming, but i want to ajak saper eh as dating partner? HAHAHA

Will be out with the to SHEESHA this SATURDAY, SHEESHA DOK, high high high high.
Cough here, Cough there punyaaaa. HAHAHA.
Want to see people cough(: and high(:

Okay done for today.
I miss him.
I love him.
Can i have those moment back?
I promise to be good(:

i promise to update the other blog? (:

2010-03-29T14:56:00.003+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

Okay, talk with him yesterday. Let steal some conversation okay?

Monster : can i ask you something Irah?
Alien : yeah?
Monster : are you comfortable this way?
Alien : entah , i am confused
Monster : honestly? why are you confused?
Alien : cause i admit sometimes i wait for your text/ call i just feel that we are still together but in another hand i knew, we are nothing then how about you?
Monster : i feel the same way too. its just that i dont wait for your text or call but i always think whether should i text or call you... its just the opposite. :l
Alien : ..........

We don't stop there. Then continue at phone. HAHAHA

Today i am out already, to the usual place (:
Woke up late ):
Finding in the internet about Hand Foot Mouth Disease.

2010-03-27T13:48:00.003+08:00

What happen to my blog?
I cannot put color):
I am sad ):

OH BLOG WHY!
WHY!
WHY!
WHY!

Out today.
Tomorrow? Maybe NO want to be mummy's girl.
Rejected Sufi offer yesterday(:
Crazy asking me to go ECP with bike?
HELL NOOOO!
Tak berani joy.
Hahaha
Next SATURDAY 3rd April i meeting THEM.
CANNNOOOOOT wait(:
JEJEJEJEJEJE
HAHAHA
JAJAJAJA
GEGEGEGE

CAN GOOOOOOOO DATING(:
BONTOT I DAH MACAM BEYONCE NII.
HAHAHA

2010-03-27T13:45:00.001+08:00

Tattoo? How does people judge them? How does people look at someone with tattoo all over their body? Can family accept family member with tattoo? Honestly my family does accept people having tattoo. We don't look down on others who that tattoo becasue Mum always say to me " tak semestinya orang yang ada tattoo jahat, yang penting orang itu dah insaf , hatinya baik dan bertanggung jawab" I am not picking on people who are having tattoo, i am sorry if you are one of them. Serious i am not picking on anybody here.
I hate it when people look down on people who has tattoo, hey come on everyone has their own black history right? All depend on the person itself on proving to others that with having tattoo at their body means they are bad. People who don't have tattoo are much more worse i say with people who as tattoo at their back. 7years back when i was in Secondary i came to realize that. Because my late so called uncle pass away due to a motorbike accident and he got tattoo all over his body. Imagine that your son/daugther pass away during your birthday and it is on Hari Raya also. How life is cruel sometimes i wonder.
This is my first time on my blog i mention about my late uncle, true he was well known in the East side. He was there when we are in need. I am not being too proud saying all this. But then when i look at the community now how the growing up girls and boys are living seriously it shocked me. True i am once in their state ,i bet have seen people that are much worse case as them. This kid are just to childish to me. If you are thinking to be a so called minah rep please eh act maturely think before you act.
Back to my story. He is my greatest uncle i ever have. I don't why i miss him. But god love him more that all of us. I miss the times when nenek ask me to wake him up because when he sleep it very hard for someone to actually wake him up. Seriously thinking about him, talking about him make me cry. I know we have to let go a person when he already gone, But this is already 7 years and i felt that just yesterday i lost him. Because of him i changed, because of him i threw my bad stuffs. Because i knew i live in this world only for a meanwhile not forever. Abang An-Nur taught me to be pateint whenever someone did something bad to me, Because one fine day god will repay double of his bad stuffs he/she have done to me. He told me " IRah, biar orang pijak kepala kita, biar dier tunjuk terror die, tapi satu hari biar dia dah terbaring, minta maaf dengan kita barulah dia terima balasan dia" That might be the reason why until now people i don't act like a mad dog when someone provoke me , calling me names, talking bad to me. Because i don't mind. As i knew one fine day when your time is going to be over and come to me asking for forgiveness, there never be a forgiveness for you.
The reason why i don't like be act rush is cause i knew if i act rush, fight will come and come on fighting? OH MY GOD, how childish can someone be? What will fighting do? End your solution? No right? that why i always say think before you want to act. Do you think with all the fight you will get popular all. NO. NO NO. That is in US not in Singapore. I don't rush for fighting, but i am chasing over education. Because in Singapore will a decent job you will never go anywhere. Cannot even buy your own house when you are already grown up and want to start a family. And cannot even feed your children with proper food. Then you feel that if i were young i should have study proper. I don't get with kid nowadays, why must wait til the point there knew that there no turning point. Why not now? I just don't what to be that mother who regret in the future. Because i don't want my children to suffer just because of my stupid act.

Always in my memories and heart Md An-Nur
Al-Fatiha

2010-03-19T15:11:00.002+08:00

PEEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

BACK. Hello HOLIDAY(: My Holiday has started. Not in the moood ):
Complain to Sufi that i got bontot cramp and stuffs all. All he does is to LAUGH! Hahas. Kurangajar eh? Dah Dah Dah. Malas ugh ngn si Sufi. Dalar tengok salah wayang. buat malu aje! haa

2010-03-15T21:56:00.005+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOOO (:

Lazy to update so here the picture
When sheesha with Sofie, Yiyin, Nana, Nadia, Hafiz, Nizam, IRAAH

2010-03-12T12:47:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

Doaku by Hady Mirza have been released at YouTube (:
I am soooo Happpy!! I have heard the full song (: Anyone out there got the mp3 format? Please pass to me. Yay

2010-03-12T11:10:00.002+08:00

PEEEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOOOOOO (:

Hello bloggy, i love you. So random? I don't why recently i bumped into the person tht i don't wish to see? Stupid you people who walk the same direction as me. GRRRR. All have to do is smile only (: and what do you expect? i start the conversation? NO WAY!Okay i have started school!
Mum have left to Kuala Lumpur for a holiday, she will be back only on Sunday night. Gosh, I miss you mummy): But she left with 1 BIG pot of ayam lemak cili padi. Gosh. Gosh. Yummmmy right?
Okayy. School started already. And there like phase test. Okay i can do it. She did not prompt me , and only ask me 1 question. What a relieved! I can enjoy my weekend in a peace mind (:
THANK GOD! I LIKE !
Been practicing my insulin very hard! I swear i practise okay! And I am Sorry MR Pooh for injecting water to your abdomen area (: and hopefully the real owner ( ichik ) did not know that i abuse MR Pooh (: haha So what if he know right? He already have his Supergirl right? And he really break my heart into pieces! GRRRR.
So i done my insulin phase test just now. I think i pass. Cause i peek into my paper just now. I sorry. that was NOT on purpose i swear (:

My acting is done well. I am sorry for you who have affected with my attitude ): Because i gave you hard time , i act like a bitch, i act as if i don't love you, don't care about you. Cause i want to see how you handle stuffs when things between us get worse. Don't worry, ILOVEYOU (:

OFf to Sheesha on Saturday and dating (:
ILOVEYOUUU

2010-03-04T19:40:00.004+08:00

PEEEEEK AAAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOOOOO (:

Hahas
Yesterday i went out. BUGIS. Have Sheesha with CriesInAgong(CIA), and Kashy, Had alot of fun. Super FUN! i repeat FUN. Funny. But i macam biasa have to wait for them. At Bugis MRT. Like 45minute? haha. Until i finish 1 honeydew ice blended and 1 curry puffs while waiting for them. Then off walking, Aladin to send off Kashy stuffs and then to Kampang Glam Cafe, i had mii hun pataya with mineral water.
Cia had nasi pataya eith Neslo, Kashy had Nasi Goreng Seafood with Egg and Sirup Limau.
Then Sheesha. I forgot what flavor we had, isit Strawberry Mango? Haha.
Sure that sheesha got me cough, and best thing HIGH! i was HIGH! HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH (:
Loook at my picture i got HIGH. No use complaining because end up get scolded ): how sad right? We talk, talk talk, gossip
Kashy going off to Aussie on Saturday, and she pass her driving license wohuuuuu, she can drive us out every weekend! haha. And i gave her alot of alcohol swabs. haha (:

Tomorrow last day off attachement. Back to school i am Year 2!
ILOVEYOU.
I hate Fadd! He label me KENTAL
GRRRRRR

TATA (;

2010-03-02T22:55:00.003+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOO(:

I ask for time off. Funny right. But my itch hand want to text or call you. Thanks for making my day pantat (: True i cry each day, each night. Seriously i am hurt. But i know as day goes by this heart will cure. Listening to Separuh Jiwaku Pergi by Anang really make my tears flow easily );
And that song got some sort of related to the situation i am having right now -_-
I know, I know, I know i am cruel asking for a time off. Cause i really need my own space.
Ask babyboy for help to write my letter, then his friend call. I put down the phone as i don't want to disturb, then he ask if i am okay or not. Seriously baby, i am okaay (;
Sooorry for making you worry.

Going off to sheesha tomorrow.
Working with the best buddies tomorrow.
I just love. love love love them (:

Benar ku mencintaimu
tapi tak begini
kau khianati hati ini
kau curangi aku

Kau bilang tak pernah bahagia
selama dengan aku
itu ucap bibirmu

Kau dustakan semua
yang kita bina
kau hancurkan semua

2010-03-01T22:40:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

I am sorry boyfriend. Lets start afresh. Between Monster and Alien. Perhaps what you say to me was true . I am willing to wait for you to changed. And learn for your mistake. Cause my learning from mistake is the best. And you promise me that. I keep that promise (:

I LOVE YOU, MONSTER (:

2010-02-28T18:25:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

even if i hear from you side. People might think i am crazy. Taking things back, that i throw away.
I don't want more. I want to stop. Enough of the pain, suffer. Just stand there, watch me cry, watch me cry, watch me fall. You are no longer my sunshine. Your feeling have fade. Without you i will never go insane. I am not scared on living this life alone. Without you. Cause i know i can do it (:

Cause i never be the same girl again

A new beginning, a different chapter.
Good bye old memory (:

2010-02-28T12:41:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOOOO (:

Hey. My mind in a whirl. More eye bags coming up. Tears flowing down. Saying that i am okay. Saying i am fine. Telling people i am going to be fine. Whereas no one knows what i suffer. How i feel. Everything. Calling people in the morning to accompany me, listen to my misery, drinking to my sorrows. But will all this matter have ease my pain? Probably no.

Sorry if i cannot solve this matter like how i use to solve our problem. I am just speechless. Really.

Fuck love, Fuck trust. Fuck hope. I hate everything right now. Don't bother ask cause i will not share with anyone. Cause no one deserve a second chance not, i simply cannot be bother. Die for all i care. Bring along everything. But then don't come back to me. Cause i would be like the old IRAAH , falling in your trap again. Hariz did once do this to me, follow by Md Suhaidil, then Md Shahideen now you. Let me stop everything okay?
Why do i cry stupidly right? Why do i even care to find the right path for you. Why do i even bother searching for you high and low when i know you are making use of me. Why did i care right? Why does these stupid damn tears fall. Why did i. Why did i never think. Why did i let go my happiness and let misery in my life.

Really, i now my aim is to forget everything. You want to talk bads about me. Go ahead. I don't care. I don't give a fuck. Cause i really hate you. Fun making use of me. I am a loser. You enjoy the game. Perhaps now is game over between us. You really disappoint me. I don't want you in my life. I don;t want you anymore. Perhaps i got no guts to tell you on the phone, but seriously now i hate you. Go away. Far Far Far Far Far Far Far Far Far Far Far Far Far Far Far from me.
You never love me, why should i love you. You never miss me, why should i miss you, Why never serious when you are with me, why should i foolish being serious. All the things you say were not true. All is fake. Fake hope. Fake.

I was the actress in your play(:
Thank you for everything

2010-02-20T16:08:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOOOO (:

Hello(:
I am IRAAH. i am sorry for not updating my blog for a long period of times. Because i am very busy. ?I am busy due to Attachment on weekdays and Work other places during the weekend. All i did is work, work, until i am not aware that i have changed. I simply forget people feeling, because all i can do is saying i miss you, but i did not show my expression that i really miss you. Because at first i thought you were fooling around. But then it is true. I am Sorry Boyfriend? For ignoring your feeling. Because attachment is very very tiring ): have to stand for 7hours. Looking at boring patient. I look at my patient, they look at me. Giggle. Then i walk around the ward looking for things to do. Asking the Staff Nurse or Enrolled Nurse what to do. Weird right? Then off seraching for my friends in the ward, to talk, read our patient case notes. Really. Boring, i hate the ward. Gosh 2 week please help me end faster will you.

Teacher, say i am talkactive. That not true. I am pendiam, never disturb people, don't give comment anyhow. That me. giggle. I am such a gooood student that listen to teacher. And ask teacher for my skills (:

Okay currently i am bored at library. I just got my pay (: yesh uh! Party! Party! Have to do some errands such as perfume my hair stuffs, any yeah i need new tight and jean too. Realli. I am in need of that. Wait. Must ask ADAAAM to buy for me instead eh? And he have been coughing these few days. Cough. Cough. Cough. Swear that he will cough in front of his mum and yeah, he did it and get scolding for free (: PADAN MUKA D ! Kan kene marah. Itularh D, degil kan ngn i. Ini larh Taubat bagi mu sayang. haha

2010-02-20T00:34:00.001+08:00

I

LOVE

MY

MONSTER !

2010-01-22T22:19:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOOO

To anyone out there? If you wish to tell Adam that you miss him or what? Hey go ahead right? Yeah i may be the wrost jelousy he might have. And yeah he might miss you too. So? Let me be honest here, do anything to get him back. But then you will fail. You can say that i use black magic and all to him. And yeah go ahead. Cause i don't care. Perhaps he miss you as a friend. Think maturely yeah? Maybe Adam told me that people learn from mistake. He might tell others that he miss you. But the problem lies on you. Cause right from the start you knew i was with him. And you knew Adam weakness is that. And why did you continue posting on your personnal message that you miss that too? And explain that to me? Can you?? please? Elaborate it to me. Yeah?
How does it feel that you miss other people boyfriend? Fun? Hey i might be a bit heck care about this matter in the past last time cause i am nothing to him. but now i am his Girlfriend. And i got the right to get involve in this situation. The matter is if even you knew that he miss you. You can ignore it right? Instead of ignoring, what you did? posting on your personnal message?
And yeah i talk to Adam about this matter, and yeah i will not make this stuff bigger. I will just close one eye. Pretend that nothing happen. Pretend i knew nothing. And then if this matter get wrost.
And for who may consent I am sorry. Instead of making us happy, you turn us into fight? Happy about it? Yeah you should be.
To Boyfriend , I am sorry sayang. I love you. I swear i do. Sayang, i never put the blame on you or her. Never in my life. Yet i put the blame on me. Cause i fail to be a good girlfriend to you. True i might cry and all. I might feel hurt and all. But baby, swear to you, this is nothing to me between us. Cause you knew no matter what i still love you right? Cause boy, no one else in my heart except for you. And for those who feel hurt nor what. Hey i am sorry okay? I just won't talk about this matter anymore. (:

Good Night.
Currently talking with boyfriend.
Till late night please?
I want the 66bucks ride boyfriend(:

2010-01-22T20:12:00.003+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

Yeah(:
My wireless at home is back. Gosh I call Singtel, thank god the person help me.
Had school just now. Due to SIMS training. Have Mdm Masni as my SIMS teacher. Gosh, she is such a good teacher(: i like her. The best teacher of all.
I am piss off with one of the Staff Nurse who say We student Nurse did not know how to do anything.
Not in a mood to blog anymore ):

I am piss off!
I don't know what to do.
You miss her?
Okay fine.
GOOOOOOOOOOOO.
It has been a long time since we fight right?
How do you feel when i told you that i miss my Ex Boyfriend that wants me back?
Sigh.
I really don't know what to say anymore.

Heartbreak.
Heartache
Pain

2010-01-16T16:30:00.002+08:00

PEEEEEEK AAAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

Currently in the Library.
People are busy studying (:
While i am here busy MsnING, FacebookING, AlamakING, looking for part time jobs (:
And out of 5 i sent. I reply to me and that will be at Eunos.
So have interview tomorrow. Since i cannot get through at Kid Explorer might as well i try this yeah? Hopefully i get it. Cause i badly need a job):
Money to shop, Money for perfume, Money for that. Money for this (:
Need to wear Formal Dressing. What should i wear?
IF BoyF know, he will be mad cause i did not inform him.
Hey, in advanced Sorry okay?
I will noted in my heart that you love me (:
Yay.

Currently i am online with Boyfriend
Listening to Doaku By Hady Mirza.
Gosh. That song. I need it (:
Pass to me if anyone have it please?
Thanks (:

Busy with Attachment (:
Gosh.
But then i love my people(:

2010-01-13T08:55:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOO (:

Gosh.
I has really been a long time since i update this bloggy stuffs.
Hahas
Been Busy. Busy. Busy. Busy
Now back to Hospital.
Working as a Nurse.
Where i can apply my skill to the patient.
Gosh!
Complete downloading my songs. Cause ADAAM so lokek tknk share lagu kan?
Takper eh.
Gosh, really i need to apply my bond after the whole attachment!
And my current teacher is much more better than the previous teacher!
And posted to the same ward.
Okayy..
Later i got attachment in the afternoon that is 1 til 9.
And BoyF, is soo good that he teman me.

TATA(:

2009-12-29T21:53:00.003+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOOOOO (:

my countdown??

KOKE with my love and then off the Bugis for Sheeshaaaa
Koke 2 hours and additional 1 hour by boyfriend kot. hahaha
Sheshaaa cannot wait to play around with the smoke(:
yay!!!
Countdown here we gooooo!!
Bringing along boyfriend toooo (:
Dumbass mu Adaaam, say want to bring to Hotel81 with them!
hahaha
Please reader don't get it wrong.
We want to enjoy the facility in the hotel, not facility on our self!
LIKE DUHHHH!!
Goshhhh (:
IcannotWaitForever Right Now.
Please Thursday come faster.
I begging youuuu (:

He say he make it.
Gosh, i malu nnt you bbl i.
B seram banyak ngn Matrep uh D.
ily muacks

TATA (:

2009-12-26T17:10:00.003+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

Yesterday had a agruement with Adam.
My fault. Sigh
Then we are back to normal.
And start to make silly stuffs.
Pantat kau Adam! Miang, Gatal.
Hahas

Talk. Talk. Talk. Talk.
Air game. Air game. Air game. Air game.
lols
Irritate one another.
Gosh, i don't why does people edit thier photo?
Trying to look different?
But why? Still when you meet that person in real life don't tell me that you are going to edit yourself?
Sigh.

Yesterday "exchange" photo with Adam.
Or should i say i stole his picture? IF you are reading, I tak curi okay? I terpicit Save kan ):
hahaha.

Countdown coming.
Nurul agree if Adam come she will treay us 1 hour koke.
hahaha
If Adam came the he pay the next 2 hours of koke.
Deal?
Kidding. Will he come?
Gosh, need to wear tight later people can look at my pantat yang takda shape. lols
Still bored. Damn Bored. He never report strength ):

And some people think i gave him virus?
Hahas. Monkeybar! " Banyak larh kau peh Virus eh? "
By the way ingat eh, ada kalah, ada menang (:
Aku tetap nak revenge!

2009-12-23T19:53:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAA BOOOOO (:

Update again? lols.
Been telling people that my butt is like Beyonce.
If Dude, Amoi, LBB, Cia, Kashy saw this.
They will be OMG IRAAH. Tkmu perasaan eh?
Cause they don't agree i got good butt.
But Boyfriend say the opposite, to win my heart?
Tip to make me sick? H1n1? Faint?
Been away from all people, hey i got my own reason okay?
Only if i can change back time?
That will be good.
I am feeling sick now.
Still no calls yet from Him.
He told his Manager to stop work last week, end up need extra worker.
Then pay him double larh!
Kan Kan Kan Daaah marah. lols

Link our blog (:
At the 1st link.
haha

2009-12-23T17:58:00.003+08:00

PEEEEEK AAAAA BOOOOO (:

Little Brother had my previous Secondary School.
Gosh, I really hate that school.
Lots of memories there.

I don't know, went out without my parent permission.
They say that i am a troublemaker.
I am a type of gerl that hold all grudges. It is very difficult for me to forget what you have done to me. I would not brag much here.
fought with them yesterday, really had a big fight
Boyfriend know why.
Boyfriend got work today.
Not sure what time he will be back home.
I have to wait for him, gosh i am missing you matair pantat berlobang!

Play the air game with ADAAM yesterday.
End up, kene scold, told me that i am irritating!
Sedeh eh?
Suppose to meet them tomorrow, wanted to tagged Adam along, then i feel that let Adaam, work til this week, and meet my babygerl next week. During countdown (:
Gosh, i miss them already ):
I am sorry babygirl for not meeting you up tomorrow.I am really sorry. I love you.

Standby malam i will cry.
Comfirm. Haix. Problem go away will you?

2009-12-21T17:23:00.003+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Here are the photos.
Alone.
Play games with Boyfriend yesterday.
Play bowling and i won,
Tic Tac Toe also i won(:
Lastly we play puzzle.
He won.
And he irritate me!
Steal my puzzle ):

Then end up talking with him on the phone til 3am i guess?
Cause both of us is hyper active
And end up he is doze off to bed.
And i blow wind blow at the phone, he come me irritating.

Boyfriend Sim-card got stolen,
So people call, text him up.
I don't mind, cause a Bangladesh Man will answer and reply to you (:

Gold eye liner

Boyfriend destroy my photo

Our talk

Combination of puzzle and talk

I LOVE this photo

2009-12-18T16:26:00.002+08:00

PEEEEK AAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Hahas.
I love my trademark.
Yesterday i am super upset with someone.
Don't want to mention name here.
Chat with him at MSN.
Told me that he lost his phone, then he started to panic, searching for his phone.
And i try asking him where he last put and all stuffs.
Then call his hand phone and he pick up and started to giggle, burst, snort all!
He laugh for almost 2 minutes!
And talk on the phone, he told me " Ah, B, wait eh? "
Waited, and Waited, And Waited. Happily waiting.
Next moment i hear a wheezing sound.
Meaning? Kene cheated by him!
He doze off. Hahaas.

Maybe going fishing tomorrow (:

2009-12-15T02:13:00.004+08:00

PEEEEEK AAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOOO (:

I swear if he were to read this post.

I will get free nagging. i repeat, F-R-E-E
(:Cause it has been 3 days i sleep at 3 am.
Hahaha

Been days since i update my bloggy.
hahaha.
Boyfriend is asleep. He told me he got me something, but then he won't be telling me, and he want to gave it to me. Macam shiok kan die belikan something,

He will be working and working.
And he will be tired after work.
And got 1-2hours for me and then he doze off on the phone,
in the morning call him to wake him up.
And he off to work.
Daily routine with him right now ):

Okaay people, i want to read hos past text and he his recording (:
giggle.
now i am sick in the brain.
lols

2009-12-13T17:19:00.002+08:00

PEEEEEK AAAAAAAAA BOOOOOO (:

Currently missing you my babyboy.
Sorry if i cry again. Just miss you.
Hearing your voice just now morning really make me happy.
The morning masai kiss you have, make me melt.
Then i told you to call me first before off to work right?
But you did not call ):
I text you that i am awake.
And miss call your handphone, seem your prepaid is low.
And here i am missing you again.
Reading your past text.
And hearing your recording.
Gosh, i know this is weird, but this is what i am facing.
Hope you call me today?
Cause sumpah demi alla, aku windu kau bodoh peh boyfriend!
You don't have to feel guilty boyfriend.
It is not your fault.
I know you are tired, that why you did not call me or leave me a text.
Now i know how you feel when you did not call me the whole day):
Boyfriend you say you tak bikin lagi kan?
Janji eh Donkey?
haha

Okayy(:
Had fun with my baby darling.
Out. Out. Out with them.
And i know, Boyfriend, is not happy cause i keep going home late.
Hahas.
And a stupid me took the wrong train.
Malu sak. Not my fault, Amoi fault cause she rush me.
Had fun with them.
Those webby moment. Where i act up as Pontianak and scared off Immo belo.
Ilove my babygerl, Siti Nadia, Kashy, Amoi and Nurul (:
haha

Okaay done updating.
Oh result, when are you be out?

I am into koke session.
Anyone who want to ajak me.
Please?
I am free always.
Mentang2 dah jadi member mah!
hahaha.
Cepat!!
Yok kter g koke!
IRaah nak!!!
yipeeee (:
ILOVEYOU

TATA(:

2009-12-07T17:17:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

Hello my people.
I miss updating this blog of mine(:
and i miss my Monster D more.
Wonder if he remember today? the date?
That i known you for 7months.
Half year and a month (:
gosh, this feeling never stop for you Adam (:
ILOVEYOU and still loving you like the first day i tell you that ily(:

Okayy Stop It with him (:
Too much loving moment going on with him.
When he text me this
"The reason why im pissed is because of work. Due to work, this happens! I cant evenget to talk to you, Hais, takpe lah. Night. Its okay for you, but not for me. Its like my daily routine have changed. Im not used to not talking to you before going to sleep. Maybe you can, but i cant, i just feel lonely. I don't know why. Sorry. You think that you'll disturb my sleep? Then you're wrong. I don't mind having a short peroid of rest but i do mind if i dont get to talk to you, even it takes hour"

Gosh. My impression was seriously. OMG sayang. iloveyou.

Okayy.
I am sick.
And Adam currently is my "nurse"
Remind me to eat mecidine(:

The Body World was GREAT!
It is a must to go.
To see ALL real human body and their part too.
A eye opening (:
kinda cool to see all.
Sad to see also.
Cause there like baby in the mother womb.
IMAGINE that!
GOSH.

Next trip was fishing(:
It was raining at Bedok Jetty.
I was sick so mummy remind stay in shelther area.
When mummy saw me. And she do is shake head (:
hahaha
ILOVEYOU mummy(:
Now my voice is wrost.
No more sexy! Seksa ada! Like a man voice.
Yay! Abang Datang Sayang!
Hahaha.

Gosh, at home.
Bored.
Holiday Start.
Result are out on 11 December.
I try my very best.
Hopefully get a grade B for both!

TATA (:

2009-12-04T14:07:00.002+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAA BOOOO (:

Happy 1st Month to ehem baby.
Gosh, not lesbian nor butch okay?
Just love her, that it nothing more.

Darling, the biggest worry of mine when you say that you are being away.
i admit i was tongue-tied. i swear up and down that i am worry for you.
Worry for your safety. And with whom are going with.
Baby when you told me a week. 7 day? 168 hours? 10080 mins? 604800sec?
Those duration is super long okay? Just look at those number!
Long isit it?
I hate to see you sad

I hate it when you keep secret from me and the rest.
Cause i just don't want you to be alone.
Suffering the problem you are facing alone.
You have us sayang.
You have Amoi
You have Kashy
You have Apiz
You have Dude
You have Cia
You have Me
You have your son that is older than you ADAAM
Look sayang, you have us.
You are not alone baby.

Promise me after a week you will back.
No more running away.
Problem can be talk.
There always a solution.
No problem has a solution.
There is a way to the problem
Promise me sayang?

2009-12-02T15:01:00.003+08:00

PEEEK AAAAAAAAA BOOOOOOO (:

Hahas.
I know i am crazy.
Updating Blog(:
haha

Okay.
This will be last for today.
I promise.
After that need to update our blog(:

Saturday.
Okay..
Last Saturday when Fishing.
And GOSH i am ADDICTED to it.
When fishing at Changi til 11plus.
And Adaam actually wanted to TON but then last minute cancel cause he cannot bear to see me alone in the night.
haha.
But i end up sleeping while he is reaching me at my phone.
Hahas.
Going Fishing again This Saturday with Family.
Told ya. ADDICTED to it.

Sunday.
When Sentosa with my adk silat member.
Accompany mum because she was alone.
Gosh, i am a good gerl yeah?
But end up studying.
Saw Sham and his ghurlfriend.
So we decide together.
Really FUN(: